So it has been awhile.. i know..
A lot of movies, A lot of songs,
Thousand of stories,  little of tears and much of laughters.


Hoping that i can continue writing, realizing that so much things happens and im glad that i captured some of it into my writing.

anyway, for the moment, i started 2013 with hope.
and now i present you the first music that i really love and can connect to in 2013.

https://soundcloud.com/mrfanatiq/clarity-orchestral-mix

High dive into frozen waves
where the past comes back to life
Fight fear for the selfish pain
And it's worth it every time
Hold still right before we crash
Cause we both know how this ends
our clock ticks till it breaks your glass
And I drown in you again
Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity
walk on through a red parade
And refuse to make amends
It cuts deep through our ground
And makes us forget all common sense
Don't speak as I try to leave
Cause we both know what we'll choose
If you pull, then I'll push too deep
And I'll fall right back to you
Cause you are the piece of me
I wish I didn't need
Chasing relentlessly
Still fight and I don't know why
If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity
...Why are you my remedy
...Why are you my remedy
If our love is tragedy why are you my remedy
If our love's insanity why are you my clarity

I love you still, 

days, nights, breakups, makeups, fights, sweet moments...

with all of that, i am still here,.. You are still here.

at the end, that is what matter, and you love me still.

Good night..

Mereka bilang kita adalah cobaan, derita akhirat yang tak akan datangkan kebaikan
Saat kebahagiaan itu murni pencarian pribadi, tidak seorangpun harusnya bisa menghakimi.

Mereka bilang sakit itu bisa disembukan, luka bisa menutup dengan waktu yang membasuh.
Saat mereka kalkulasikan kenangan bahagia dengan kemampuan manusia untuk mengingat,
taukah mereka, bahwa hati lebih susah melupakan daripada  pikiran congkak manusia?

"..Your mind is swollen

From months of thought without release

They've taken their toll on you

And this very moment

if timid and fragile honesty

Is precious and rare and fleeting

And all you feel now

Is the scarlet in the day

And even if it's real

You can't stay.." - Scarlet (Brooke Fraser)

What should i say now,...
Well, kebahagiaan itu butuh usaha dan kerjasama.
Lari duluan dari yang lain cuman menempatkan kita lebih dekat ke finish line tapi tanpa riuh dan cemas, tanpa lawan untuk memotivasi.
Dan  saat sudah dekat ke garis, tiba-tiba kita terlalu letih dan akhirnya pingsan sebelum menghajar tali kemenangan.
Dan satu persatu yang lain melewati kita yang berbaring sambil berusaha keras mengatur napas.
Mereka melirik sedikit, melempar raut wajah iba, sedikit tersenyum namun tetap lari menghajar pita kuning melambangkan kemenangan...
Dan orang yang kita tunggu, untuk melambai diujung jalan, untuk memberikan semangat lagi..,
dia tak pernah datang..
dia cuman ada di angan, menjadi sebuah harapan.
Sadly, My wishful thinking..
With love,
Indhi