Kebyar-Kebyar

"66 Tahun Indonesiaku,

masih penuh luka..

masih penuh lara..

Namun masih ada cinta,

cinta yang tulus untuknya/

66 years my Indonesia,.

Still with scars..

Still in pain..

But there is still love all around,

an honest love, for her... - indhi"

Begitu banyak semangat dan optimisme dari pemuda-pemudi Indonesia untuk Indonesia yang lebih baik,  membuat saya selalu percaya, indonesia tidak akan terpuruk selamanya..../

There are so many good spirits and optimism from Indonesian-youth citizens for better Indonesia,

it keeps me believe, that Indonesia will not always be in the darkest time..

Dan untuk anda-anda pemuda-pemudi yang hanya bisa merungut,

Cercalah manusia-manusia yang menjadikan negara ini penuh noda, penuh luka..

Tapi jangan pernah menyerah untuk mencintai Indonesia../ 

And for those young people who can only act in sarcasm and skepticism,

Point your finger to the people who turn her to a blood-bath country filled with pain, and negativism..

But dont, dont ever give your hope and love for her.. never..

Kemerdekaan itu butuh usaha, 

dan saya berharap saya bisa menjadi salah satu yang berusaha../

Independence needs devotion,

I wish, No. I Want to be one of those who sacrifice for her..

Semoga semangat kemerdekaan Bung Karno dan Bung Hatta akan selalu membara di jiwa penduduk Indonesia..
Paling tidak pada sebagian orang, yang dari sebagian itu bisa membawa Indonesia ke yang adil untuknya../
Hopefully, The spirit that Bung Karno and Bung Hatta shared will always stay in her citizen's heart,. in our heart and soul... Even its only in few, but those few will fight for the good and the justice for her.

 Semangat!, untuk indonesia yang lebih baik!/ 
Keep the spirit up! for a better Indonesia!

"Seribu orang tua hanya dapat bermimpi, satu orang pemuda dapat mengubah dunia/ 

A thousand of old man are just able to dream, but a young man is able to change the world! - Soekarno"

Do you ever feel, that you are not perfect?

In life, there always be a time when a person  always think bad about her/him self..
maybe when they were young, most definitely when they were teenager..

Social life always pushes you to be more than you are, and if you just slightly different from others you will be the minority and maybe your life will just be much harder than others...

People like to talk and think bad things about other just to make fun of them or to confirmed that they are superior than others. Bullies likes to gather in groups so then they win, in numbers..

Raise your hands if you ever felt alone, different and hate yourself..


I remember my high school time.
I even don't realize that i am part of the "it" group in High school until i was in University (and its also because other people labelled me that way in Uni).
For me, they are my friends, It's just because we are in a big group and always go anywhere together, then they claim that we are that type of snobby, silly girls..
When in reality, we just girls, big group girls.

Apart from being majority in high school, i was instead a minority in my class.
Most of the student in my class are bright, very bright that almost all the way since Last year of Junior High till Last year of Senior High they're always in the same class, the "smart people" class.
I only join the class half way through, i was in the bottom though. Not that bright to compete with them. but i was loud and energetic, always fools around and play along with other without even think that my act will do any harm to other.

It's easy for me to get along with the boys in class, because im insensitive, they can treat me like their own without afraid to hurt my feeling and the other way around.
But the girls didnt think that way..
and i was naive..

Long story short, i was alien in my own class.
The girls think im such a bitch,..
They hate me because i was being myself.
and hate me because i was my friend's Friend.

Definitely the problem was not on me, but at that time i was thinking the other way around.
And it did broke me..

But at the end,
11 years after, i am still me..
The loud, energetic person who still closed with my high school friends and still love them as much as before.
I still love to hang out with guys, old friends or new..
I love myself.....
and i should've known it that time..

I was listening to Pink's song, Fuckin' Perfect and there's a line that remind me of that time  

"...done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere 

They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair Why do we do that? Why do I do that? ..."

Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time 

So for every YOU who think you are less than perfect,.. You are not,

you are perfect, at least for those who love you :)..

Pernah gak sih lo merasa trauma akan sesuatu hingga bertahun-tahun setelahnya, lo masih mual saat mengingat..

Pernah gak sih lo pada akhirnya sadar kalau lo trauma ama sesuatu karena walaupun bertahun-tahun setelah lo mendapatkan hidup yang normal, lo masih memikirkan hal tersebut?,

Dan gue disini sekarang, hidup normal dan bahagia. tapi masih saja memimpikan sesuatu yang tidak diinginkan..

dan gue disini sekarang, sudah bertahun-tahun lamanya, masih saja bangun dengan dengan rasa sesak yang sama..

lalu semua ini salah siapa??

with love,
indhi