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#25 How?

2011-10-21T00:25:00.000+08:00

Ask me what i want in life...
it's simple, i want to make people that i love happy...

But if you ask me how i want to live my life,.
That is difficult..
The answer that i give you today might be different with the one that i will give you one year later...

But as for now, if i try to feel and not think..
I want to live my life with excitements, Rush in my blood, sleepless night, never stop thinking, never stop doing...
I want to be someone that matters,.
I want to love my works, to wake up everyday with passion and high-spirit...

I want to live.....

*never thought after 5 years working in architecture, i start to wish for something else. so God please help me,..

#24 Indonesia, cinta saya untuknya

2011-08-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

Kebyar-Kebyar

"66 Tahun Indonesiaku,

masih penuh luka..

masih penuh lara..

Namun masih ada cinta,

cinta yang tulus untuknya/

66 years my Indonesia,.

Still with scars..

Still in pain..

But there is still love all around,

an honest love, for her... - indhi"

Begitu banyak semangat dan optimisme dari pemuda-pemudi Indonesia untuk Indonesia yang lebih baik, membuat saya selalu percaya, indonesia tidak akan terpuruk selamanya..../

There are so many good spirits and optimism from Indonesian-youth citizens for better Indonesia,

it keeps me believe, that Indonesia will not always be in the darkest time..

Dan untuk anda-anda pemuda-pemudi yang hanya bisa merungut,

Cercalah manusia-manusia yang menjadikan negara ini penuh noda, penuh luka..

Tapi jangan pernah menyerah untuk mencintai Indonesia../

And for those young people who can only act in sarcasm and skepticism,

Point your finger to the people who turn her to a blood-bath country filled with pain, and negativism..

But dont, dont ever give your hope and love for her.. never..

Kemerdekaan itu butuh usaha,

dan saya berharap saya bisa menjadi salah satu yang berusaha../

Independence needs devotion,

I wish, No. I Want to be one of those who sacrifice for her..

Semoga semangat kemerdekaan Bung Karno dan Bung Hatta akan selalu membara di jiwa penduduk Indonesia..
Paling tidak pada sebagian orang, yang dari sebagian itu bisa membawa Indonesia ke yang adil untuknya../
Hopefully, The spirit that Bung Karno and Bung Hatta shared will always stay in her citizen's heart,. in our heart and soul... Even its only in few, but those few will fight for the good and the justice for her.

Semangat!, untuk indonesia yang lebih baik!/
Keep the spirit up! for a better Indonesia!

"Seribu orang tua hanya dapat bermimpi, satu orang pemuda dapat mengubah dunia/

A thousand of old man are just able to dream, but a young man is able to change the world! - Soekarno"

#23 Teruntuk Indonesiaku

2011-08-16T23:34:00.001+08:00

Menjelang kemerdekaan ke-66 Indonesiaku

dengan penuh kebanggaan saya katakan bahwa SAYA MENCINTAI INDONESIA

Terlepas dimanapun saya berada, Pulang adalah ke Indonesiaku

dan saya lantunkan "Indonesia, Merah darahku, putih tulangku, bersatu dalam semangatku"

Tetap semangat Negaraku tercinta, Love you still, Love you will...

#22 Merdeka?

2011-08-15T22:05:00.000+08:00

17/08/11

Dua hari menuju peringatan hari kemerdekaan negaraku tercinta..

Tapi apakah memang kita masih merdeka?...

#21 Sekarang untuk Esok, dan saat ini untuk nanti

2011-07-27T01:37:00.003+08:00

Akhir-akhir ini emosi suka di pancing sama hal-hal sepele yang selalu ditahan-tahan...

Kadang hidup dan manusia susah banget buat gue pahamin, .. serius deh, beneran.. susah...

Gimana sih manusia itu bisa ada yang egois, ada yang pengertian,..
ada yang selalu ngeliat yang baik dan positif dari segala hal, ada yang selalu ngais-ngais kejelekan orang lain...
Ada yang suka membantu orang lain berlebihan, ada yang selalu memanfaatkan orang lain..

Bagaimanakah hal tersebut terbentuk?, patutkah menyalahkan orang tua?
trus kalo tidak, nyalahin lingkungan?, emang lingkungan siapa yang milih? bukannya orang tersebut yang milih sendiri..?
Tapi bukannya orang tua bisa menyarankan mana yang baik mana yang buruk..
Alah puyeng.. tapi beneran puyeng..

Kenyataan-kenyataan ini membuat gue super deg-degan buat punya anak,.. gimana akhirnya si Anak memiliki kebebasan berpendapat atau memilih jalan hidup tapi tetap menjadi manusia yang baik, toleransi tinggi, pengertian, sensitif tapi tidak agresif, dan lain lainnya..

ngejaga diri gue sendiri aja masih suka deg-degan, pastinya banyak juga yang gak suka dengan salah satu sifat gue,... sigh..

Gimana kalo anak gue jadi kayak orang-orang yang suka bikin gue gemes dan frustasi..
Orang yang gak tau diri, suka pancing kekisruhan, suka adu domba, suka memanfaatkan orang lain, Egois, dan lainnya...

ini M E N Y E R A M K A N....
S A N G A T...

#20 Naik-Turun ala Kehidupan

2011-07-26T01:27:00.003+08:00

Coba ayok diingat-ingat yaaa,..

Hidup itu ada naik ada turunnya.. kalo belum turun-turun ampe
sekarang, belum tentu gak akan,..
Hidup gak berhenti di satu generasi,.

And like wise, kalo belum naik naik, emang mungkin ya belum waktunya,.
atau mungkin belum pantas, tapi kan lagi, hidup gak berhenti di satu generasi ya toh..

tidur dulu yuk sekarang,..

with love,
indhi

#19 You are perfect..

2011-02-16T21:54:00.003+08:00

Do you ever feel, that you are not perfect?

In life, there always be a time when a person always think bad about her/him self..
maybe when they were young, most definitely when they were teenager..

Social life always pushes you to be more than you are, and if you just slightly different from others you will be the minority and maybe your life will just be much harder than others...

People like to talk and think bad things about other just to make fun of them or to confirmed that they are superior than others. Bullies likes to gather in groups so then they win, in numbers..

Raise your hands if you ever felt alone, different and hate yourself..

I remember my high school time.
I even don't realize that i am part of the "it" group in High school until i was in University (and its also because other people labelled me that way in Uni).
For me, they are my friends, It's just because we are in a big group and always go anywhere together, then they claim that we are that type of snobby, silly girls..
When in reality, we just girls, big group girls.

Apart from being majority in high school, i was instead a minority in my class.
Most of the student in my class are bright, very bright that almost all the way since Last year of Junior High till Last year of Senior High they're always in the same class, the "smart people" class.
I only join the class half way through, i was in the bottom though. Not that bright to compete with them. but i was loud and energetic, always fools around and play along with other without even think that my act will do any harm to other.

It's easy for me to get along with the boys in class, because im insensitive, they can treat me like their own without afraid to hurt my feeling and the other way around.
But the girls didnt think that way..
and i was naive..

Long story short, i was alien in my own class.
The girls think im such a bitch,..
They hate me because i was being myself.
and hate me because i was my friend's Friend.

Definitely the problem was not on me, but at that time i was thinking the other way around.
And it did broke me..

But at the end,
11 years after, i am still me..
The loud, energetic person who still closed with my high school friends and still love them as much as before.
I still love to hang out with guys, old friends or new..
I love myself.....
and i should've known it that time..

I was listening to Pink's song, Fuckin' Perfect and there's a line that remind me of that time

"...done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere

They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair Why do we do that? Why do I do that? ..."

Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time

So for every YOU who think you are less than perfect,.. You are not,

you are perfect, at least for those who love you :)..

#18 adilkah?

2011-02-09T01:48:00.003+08:00

Melalui salah satu tweet seorang teman, saya menemukan link ini

Betapa miris hati saya membacanya..
memang, belum tentu ibu itu salah atau benar..
Tapi, dengan kualitas hukum yang ada di Indonesia, patut untuk diragukan ke'adil'annya..

Bagaimana bisa,
seorang Gayus, yang walau sudah terbukti bersalah dan bisa ambil 'cuti' dari penjara dengan seenaknya bisa mendapat hukuman yang lebih ringan dari Si Ibu..

Memikirkan, kalau itu Ibu saya.. dan mendapatkannya mendekam dipenjara yang dingin dan tidak bersahabat selama 10tahun atas sesuatu kesalahan yang tidak disadarinya, saya bisa GILA!

Kemana hati nurani orang-orang ya TUHAN.. terlepas dari para hakim dan juri di persidangan, kemana hati orang yang menjebak si IBU itu,.

Bisakah dia terus menjalani hidupnya dengan nyaman mengetahui sebuah keluarga diporakporandakan kehidupannya, semata-mata karena dia ingin hidup FOyA FOYA..

Miris hati saya ...
Mulas dan mual..
Saya berdoa, dengan sangat..
Semoga keadilan masih ada di Indonesia..

Semoga pintu kebaikan dan kejujuran dibukakan di hati2 para koruptor,.. sudah mereka merengut hasil jerih payah orang lain, masih juga perlu mengkambing hitamkan orang lain dan lari dari tanggung jawab..

Semoga sistem keadilan di Indonesia bisa lebih baik, dan Para hakim dan juri tidak menjadi korban dari hasrat kerakusan manusia..

Saya berdoa, agar keadilan kembali berkunjung ke Indonesia..

Saya berdoa,..

with love,
indhi

#17 a visit with friends

2011-02-05T18:10:00.002+08:00

The sun was shining, and its bright..
We just wandering and we were alright..
So when the sky become dark and then we stood..
We just laugh at the rain, and it still all alright...

with love,
indhi

#16 and its colorful

2011-02-04T11:26:00.002+08:00

It was Chinese New Year, welcoming the rabbit in a colorful way..

Hope all the best for this year, may all be happier than years before..

Amin

with love,
indhi

#15 once upon a time, Garbage time..

2011-01-20T20:43:00.003+08:00

In my teenage years, i was a little bit gloomy, a bit complicated and not easy to understand..

I was growing up with musics then, not those musics that commonly heard by girls on my age, i am more to the rock sides, maybe alternative rock to be precise, those with beats where i can jump and sing loud..

I was a big fan of No Doubt, Garbage and Potret (Indonesian band) ..and i think i still am,.

Today i suddenly want to hear Garbage's music again, its just a sudden "poof" in my head..
At first i wanted very bad to hear "I think i'm Paranoid" song, and then it goes on to stupid girl, temptation waits and others, including medication..

Garbage are a Scottish/American alternative rock band formed in Madison, Wisconsin, in 1994.^[1] The band consists of Scottish vocalist Shirley Manson and American musicians Duke Erikson, Steve Marker and Butch Vi (From Wikipedia)

I only had their Version 2.0 album, but i was listening it everyyyy dayy.. (in between No doubt's and Potret's songs as well).

Hearing those songs now still makes me want to jump and sing out loud, the difference is, now i kinda understand on why did i like the band very much..

The Musics are great but i think the lyrics are amazing and really gets to teenager - indhi...

Some lyrics was an approval for the gloomy-ness of me on that age, a comfort that helps to understand that its okay to be complicated .. that i was not alone..
Like in :

Im only happy when it rains :

".. i'm only happy when it rains

I'm only happy when it's complicated

And though I know you can't appreciate it

I'm only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad

And why it feels so good to feel so sad

I'm only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me

Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me "

and in I think I'm Paranoid :

"..I think I'm paranoid

And complicated

I think I'm paranoid

Manipulate it.."

and

"..Bend me, break me anyway you need me

As long as I want you, baby, it's alright

Bend me, break me any way you need me

As long as I want you, baby, it's alright.."

and some lyrics are just to educate more about people, and growing up

Example in Stupid Girl :

"..You pretend you're high

You pretend you're bored

You pretend you're anything

Just to be adored

And what you need

Is what you get

Don't believe in fear

Don't believe in faith

Don't believe in anything

That you can't break

You stupid girl

All you had you wasted

All you had you wasted.."

and in Push it :

"...I was angry when I met you

I think I'm angry still

We can try to talk it over

If you say you'll help me out

Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)

No need to fight

Don't worry baby (don't worry baby)

We'll be alright.."

Anyway...
Im listening to them again now,
and as in their other songs When i Grow up says :

"..Blood and blisters

On my fingers

Chaos rules when we're apart

Watch my temper

I go mental

I'll try to be gentle.. "

but they say

"..When I grow up

I'll be stable

When I grow up

I'll turn the tables.."

I did grew.. and im stable now.. (more stable than before at least)..
yeay to me.. And Garbage ROCKs!!! :)

Ps : This last song is another great song from Garbage, the tittle is Medication ..

(..Somebody get me out of here
I'm tearing at myself
Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else)

#14 giggles and tiny hands

2011-01-17T00:33:00.001+08:00

[...
Goodnight..
try to get your sleep, child...
i will sing you lullabies,
but you need to close your eyes shut..

Dont worry love,
im not going anywhere..
Just sleep and have your dreams,
and i'll be here when you wake up..

Nighty nite my sweetlife,
i kissed you and hold you tight..
feel me warm my lovely child,
you shall feel, i will always love you..
..]

Nowadays, friends around me already have their lovely childrens..

im a proud aunty, and i love them all, truly and honestly..
i dont know why but i do..

I hope i can always play with them..
I hope i always can find a way to shed away their tears..
I hope i always can make them laugh and smile..
(with their tiny little high voice and giggles.. tiny hand holding my finger)

For now, this is enough..

Thank you God, for You giving me something to love and care, and for now this is more than enough..

until the day that i long for..

The day i can hold my own..

#13 Musik yang Jujur

2011-01-17T00:08:00.002+08:00

Saya inget sekali pertama kali saya mendengarkan Maroon 5 karena pacar saya (yang waktu itu masih menjadi pacar baru) sedang mengandrungi band yang waktu itu namanya belum pernah saya dengar sebelum2nya..

Si pacar senang sekali berkutat dengan walk-mannya dan bersandar didekat pintu masuk gerbong kereta.. dan kala itu lagu2 Maroon 5 adalah salah satu musik yang sering menemaninya berkomuter cikini-depok-cikini dengan satu tangan bersandar ke langit2 kereta..
(Mengingat siluet itu selalu membuat saya tersenyum..)

Saya dengan mudah ikut terbius dengan lagu-lagu Maroon 5 tanpa mengetahui bentuk dan rupa dari anggota2 band tersebut.. bolak-balik kaset pinjaman pacar saya putar.. sampai akhirnya saya bosan.

Satu tahun kemudian, tiba2 terdengar di radio lagu "Harder to Breathe"nya Maroon 5, dan setelah dikilik2 ternyata bandtersebut lagi terkenal2nya.. Dengan bingung saya coba memastikan ke pacar saya kalau itu benar band dan album yang sama dengan yang satu tahun lalu saya gandrungi..
dan yap, ternyata benar.. Satu tahun kemudian mereka baru mendunia, dan saya pun akhirnya tau bentuk dan rupa dari anggota2 band tersebut..

Alasan saya menulis tentang mereka hari ini adalah, setelah bertahun2 akhirnya saya memutar lagu mereka lagi.. setelah sekian lama kecewa dengan lagu2 mereka dialbum selanjutnya, lagu "give a little more"menarik perhatian telinga saya sekali lagi.. dan akhirnya membawa saya ke nostalgia album international pertama Maroon 5..

Muka si Adam levine sekarang jauh lebih ca'em dibandingkan dengan video klip pertamanya, dan dengan kukuh tetep menjual seksualitas di tiap lirik dan tentunya video klip..

Terkadang saya rindu dengan musik yang menjual nada, dan harmoni.. tanpa liat rupa tanpa liat bentukan, seperti saat saya jatuh cinta pada Maroon 5 pertama kali, dahulu kala...

Masalahnya, sekarang ini, terlalu banyak musisi/penyanyi/band yang asal suarabagus-bodioke-tampangca'em-rambutindah dengan mudahnya terkenal walau tanpa musik dan harmoni yang kuat..
Ditambah lagi jaman sekarang trend dance-pop-synth dll sedang membahana..

Saya rindu musik yang jujur..
Trend oh trend.. :(

with love,
indhi

#12 im a foreigner

2011-01-14T22:27:00.003+08:00

For those who think that living in other country is a bless, well please think again..

It may be fun, but when you start to live at your own, those problems will arise, and being a foreigner doesnt give you much of a help..

Like here i am, after 4 years living in this country, people will expect me to get use to it and already an expert for all the hassel and the flaws..

but no, no..
after 4 years, i am still the one who got fucked up by the locals..
Thank you for their government, they always can get away with whatever they did to us..

So here i am, with 2 years contract lease for my house which only run less than a year, and the owner want to sell the freakin place when i just fell (at the end) in love with it..

Just imagine, with all the 2 years deposit and the suicidal girl at the back yard and all that, i finally fell in love and call it a home just for them to take that away from me...

But boo us, foreigners.. there is nothing that we can do.. no matter how hard we fight..

same old story, just different time and place..

with love,
indhi

#11 Traumatize

2011-01-14T21:52:00.001+08:00

Pernah gak sih lo merasa trauma akan sesuatu hingga bertahun-tahun setelahnya, lo masih mual saat mengingat..

Pernah gak sih lo pada akhirnya sadar kalau lo trauma ama sesuatu karena walaupun bertahun-tahun setelah lo mendapatkan hidup yang normal, lo masih memikirkan hal tersebut?,

Dan gue disini sekarang, hidup normal dan bahagia. tapi masih saja memimpikan sesuatu yang tidak diinginkan..

dan gue disini sekarang, sudah bertahun-tahun lamanya, masih saja bangun dengan dengan rasa sesak yang sama..

lalu semua ini salah siapa??

with love,
indhi

#10 The dark days are over

2011-01-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

[.. The dark days are over, so they say..
but years gone by and the sky just got darker..
The sun rarely shine, and the clouds just love to covers..

The dark days are over, so they say, but its still feel the same.. -indhi]

Inspired by the last song sang in Glee 'special education' episode.. i never heard the song, but there is one line that hit me hard, The dark days are over ..

So yea, it reminds me of a tale that my friend told me before.. She's a Thai, she told me, in someone's life the hardest part to live your life is when you are in your mid 20s (between 24-27), The Thai's belief is that you will be at the most darkest part of your life, where most of time you will be out of luck and et cetera..

at first i didnt truly believe it..
but, it was started when i was 24.. after a smoothly life in Singapore, suddenly all the bad things start to happen,to help you understand, i will just list it down :

1. i left my phone in a cab, and in Singapore people do get their phone back, but apparently that didnt work for me..

2. I got cheated for my house rent after only one day moving in, and in Singapore breaking a law is a real crime which you cannot get away from it.. but it didnt happen to my house owner, she just cheat my money and can walk away with it..

3. I plan for my life for that year, After join an international company, i will wait myself there until im ready to move to another country within a year or two..

and then THE WORLD ECONOMY JUST FALL APART.. and most of the country that ive been aiming for was and still in very bad condition.. even Singapore, which lead me to my number 4,

4. I got retrenched... yea, im one of those guys that got sacks off because of the poor economy , and i was just 24..

Yap all of that in one freaking year.. who to blame,? nothing but my age..

(yeaaaa rittteee...)

So, who's with me now.. what did happen to you when you're 24?

with love,
indhi

#9 Bad News

2011-01-13T00:16:00.002+08:00

So, i just finish watching How i met your mother season 6, episode 13.. and for the first time in 6 season, my eyes was watery while watching the ending..

It is not like the usual HIMYM, they usually make me -extremely- laughing from start to the end..
but this time no, no laugh at the end.. Just Sadness..

So when my favorite comedy TV series start to make me sad, is that mean that life is just too cruel..
BAD NEWS! even in fake-life there still be bitterness..

Life and death,.. you know what..

there are some expectation in life, but there is a certainty in death..

im trying my best to improve my mood now, maybe a bit of glee?

Nighty nite..

with love,
indhi

#8 30harimenulis tergopoh gopoh

2011-01-12T00:41:00.001+08:00

Jadi ceritanya kan mau berniat #30harimenulis , namun dengan sedikit tergopoh gopoh udah bolong sanah sinih dan di hari ke -11 baru nyampe post ke 7..

Sebenernya sih, blog saya ini timbul dan tenggelam sejak tahun 2006.. sebelum adanya internet, teman saya adalah pena dan kertas, kata jadi kalimat dan jadi sebuah paragraf, kata dengan tambahan bunyi jadilah sebuah lagu.. dari dulu sudah seperti itu..

Masih ada beberapa blog lainnya yang juga timbul tenggelam, karena beda fungsi, jadi hanya dikunjungi sesekali..

Menulis merupakan sebuah rehab bagi kepala yang penat dan emosi yang tidak stabil..
ada orang yang memilih berolahraga (berlari), makan yang banyak, ada yang memilih lari ke obat2an dan ada yang sampai bunuh diri..
saya pilih menulis,..

Sangat bersyukur dengan ada nya wadah untuk menulis dan perangkatnya, elektronik maupun non-elektronik. setiap saat jika gelisah, hanya tinggal mengambil
kertas dan pena dan memulai menulis atau cukup mensketsa bebas.. apapun itu, sesaat sesudahnya ada perasaan relieved, lega..

Saya yakin, banyak yang seperti saya..
Menulis adalah sebuah olahraga, sebuah penyembuhan dan sebuah pelarian.. dengan
menulis kita tenang.. dengan menulis kita senang..

Selamat menulis teman2.. :)

with love,
indhi

#7 Grey all over me

2011-01-12T00:00:00.003+08:00

So i had 3 Tv series prepared for me tonight..
How I met Your Mother, Big bang theory, and Grey's Anatomy...
I started the night with The social network though.. but i chose Grey's afterwards..

Grey's Anatomy help me realize about mid-life crisis,.
watching people emotion going ups and down while they are still doing their work amazingly professional is the THING

You cant skip class or skip your lunch because you just broke up or some guy didnt call you back..
Yes you're heart-broken, but you have to man up and walk the rest of your day with your chin-up..
and no, no , you cant miss your lunch.. you cant jeopardize your body and put it on risk, you need to stay healthy so you can keep working..

Cry and laugh as you want, but when you are on your desk, on the field, or in Grey's case in the OR, you need to take your responsibility and do your job (well!)..

It's not only about your pay.. but its about responsibility, how you already become part of someone else's life and whatever you do, will not only affect you and yourself but also other's life , whether you got paid or not..

People can die in the OR if we didnt concentrate, someone can go bangkrupt if we miss out something on their stocks, someone's house can fall down if we didnt design it well, and others that can happen if we -grown ups not having our responsibilities..

we can say the hell with our life, but open your eyes..
it is not only your life that is in your hand now..
it is others as well..

and guys.. That is mid-life crisis! , thanks to Grey's

#6 The Rocky Horror Show

2011-01-09T23:22:00.002+08:00

Aloha Creaturessss...

On Friday i was watching a Richard O'Briens Play, Rocky Horror Show..
I first know it from Glee (yea i know.. lame me..) and fell in love right away,
the music, the character, the plot.. its fun, interesting and good.

Rocky horror show 2011 program book

When i first heard that the Australian theatre group is going to perform that show here, in an instant i look for other people who might be interested to watch it with me,,, and i end up asking my colleague, a Singaporean who has been living in Australia for the past 10 Years before moving back to Singapore this year..

Me and Mel

Rocky Horror show actually telling a story about a couple who just got engaged and on their way to thank their teacher, where suddenly their car break down and they end up asking help to a transvestite mad scientist who invented a blond, tan, six pack guy with silver underwear..

Usually, when watching this show, people will dress up wildly and similar to the casts..
but i expected in Singapore this will not be the case, so we dress in a normal way..And yap, no one wear costumes..

The Show went great, i had a good time.. and in the closing part we all dance to the music as what the performer did.. it is soooo funnnn :)

I am enjoying this, its been a while since my last play..
and im looking forward for many more in the future..
:)

#5 From youtube with love

2011-01-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

Lately i've been listening to two youtube artists which i think kinda great..

they started with a low resolution type of home video and now they already have their own indie album and have local gigs..

they are BoyceAvenue and Kina grannis..

You should check BoyceAvenue rendition of Katy perry's Tennage dream here and Kina grannis rendition of Katy Perry's Fireworks here ..

and now check their own song with their music video (their album are under indie label which make it quite interesting)

BoyceAvenue : Tonight

Kina : Valentine

Have i told you that being a singer songwriter is my alter-ego big dream? and knowing that there are those who can put all their soul and love to reach their dream make me feel like a coward.. but am I ?

anyway,
the best thing is, i found out that they're doing a collaboration and they sing one of my favorite songs in whole life Fast Car (Tracy Chapman)

and i just feel, its best to describe what i feel right now..

[...And I had a feeling that I belonged ..
..And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone ...
-fast car, Tracy chapman]

with love,
indhi

#4 Ayo kamu pasti bisa!!!

2011-01-07T01:00:00.002+08:00

Mengingat resolusi saya yang tidak tercapai di 2010, yang adalah MENABUNG.. saya mau melakukan perubahan pada diri saya!!!!!

(ziiiiinnggg....)

Tolong digarisbawahi saudara saudari, bahwa sesungguhnya Indhira Sagita bukanlah orang yang senang berfoya-foya.. Setelah dirunut, .. yang mendasari kosongnya akun bank tiap akhir bulan itu ternyata adalah kesalahan pada pengaturan pengeluaran dan kedisiplinan..

(duh!)

Jadi sekarang, untuk memperbaiki kondisi kesehatan akun bank, saya mau mencoba untuk membuat perencanaan pengeluaran dan menjalaninya..

kita lihat saja seberapa disiplinnya saya mengikuti program..

Test drive ini untuk membuktikan bahwasanya sebenarnya semuanya cukup, hanya perlu keteguhan hati dan ketahanan diri..

(yeaaaaa riteeee...!!! )

Kita liat nanti progress dan hasil akhir.. apakah semua sesuai rencana? atau akan berantakan seperti biasanya..

(10$ untuk diminggu ke2 pasti udah defisit!!!)

Tampaknya, Financial planner pun tak bisa menolong saya...

(auuuuummmm...)

PS: Kesalahan bukan pada diri saya, semua kredit diberikan kepada profesi arsitektur yang tidak memiliki masa depan yang menjanjikan.. (yeaaaa riteeeee..)

with love,
indhi

#3 Romansa

2011-01-05T00:35:00.002+08:00


image courtesy of Adittoro

[I fell in love once,
and i fell over and over again..]

Manusia selalu saja mencari seseorang..
pasangan untuk berjalan bersama, pasangan untuk menjalani hidup..
Ada yang terburu-buru menentukan, ada juga yang menunda-nunda..
Ada yang selalu tidak puas, dan ada yang mudah merubah kepuasan..

Saya sendiri jujur menyadari membutuhkan seseorang..
lepas dari status yang kadang terlalu sempit, saya butuh manusia yang lain untuk menjaga kewarasan saya di hidup yang gila ini..
Dan jujur lagi berkata, tidaklah mudah untuk menemukan seseorang..
Butuh keberanian yang sangat besar untuk mulai benar-benar mencari..
Namun terkadang,.. seseorang itu bisa dengan tidak disadari tiba-tiba muncul di kehidupan kita..
Saat kita tidak siap dengan segala tameng dan senjata.. dia tiba.. begitu saja..

7 tahun lalu saya menemukan seorang teman, dia menemani saya melewati umur kritis saya..
umur dimana hal-hal kecil terlalu dipikirkan dan kehidupan dianalisa dengan penuh kerumitan..
dia menemani saya berpikir dan membantu saya keluar dari lubang jika saya tercebur terlalu dalam..
teman yang baik, dia teman yang baik..

5 tahun lalu saya menemukan seorang kekasih, dia menemani saya dalam proses pendewasaan diri,.
bahwa kekasih bukan hanya sebuah status belaka, dan semua hubungan perlu sebuah usaha,,
bahwa pertengkaran pasti terjadi, namun dengan kasih kita selalu mencoba memahami, belajar untuk bertoleransi..

3 tahun lalu saya menemukan seorang sahabat, dia selalu ada saat suka dan duka.. dan begitu juga saya untuknya,, Kita selalu bersama, menjadi pilar yang kokoh saat yang lain mulai melemah..
Bersama memahami bahwa hidup itu keras, dan Dunia sangat tidak ramah dan butuh perjuangan keras..
bersama kita bertahan hidup.. bersama berjuang untuk hidup..

1 tahun lalu semua belum ada yang berubah, saya telah menemukan seorang teman, menemukan seorang kekasih, seorang sahabat.. masih terus dia yang berdiri di samping saya.. masih terus dia yang tersenyum, tertawa, menangis bersama saya..

Saya telah menemukan seseorang..
dia yang mengajarkan saya apa arti kata berjuang..

dan masih terus saya tersenyum setiap kali mengingat ucapanya beberapa tahun lalu..

"Soulmate itu pilihan, neng.. Jodoh itu Usaha"

Saya telah menemukan seseorang,..

Saya telah menemukan tempat untuk saya bersandar..

#2 Pergi dan lalu datang lagi..

2011-01-04T00:16:00.003+08:00

4 Tahun sudah, saya pergi lalu datang lagi..

1 1/2 jam diudara selalu menjadi masa transisi,
berkata pada Ibu, saya pergi dahulu
berkata pada teman rumah, halo saya telah pulang..

Pulang.. bertanya-tanya apalah definisi dari kata Pulang..
yang saya tau, saya memiliki dua atap..
dua-duanya memberikan saya kenyamanan,
kasur untuk tidur, selimut untuk menghangatkan, dinding untuk keamanan..
Hanya yang berbeda adalah waktu, dan wajah yang saya temukan saat saya membuka pintu..

4 Tahun sudah, saya pergi lalu datang lagi..
Dan saya sudah membiasakan diri untuk terbiasa beradaptasi..
Pulang dan pergi disesuaikan sendiri,..
yang saya tau, saya ada tempat untuk tidur lelap, dan untuk sekarang ini itu sudah cukup..

#1 A friend in need..

2011-01-02T01:38:00.002+08:00

Last Month, 15th December 2010, i lost a friend..
A good friend since my Uni time..
It was a shock and it took me a while to get hold of myself to accept the fact that she's gone..
She left a husband, two children, Parents, brother, sisters and a lot of Friends..
She was loved and will always be missed...

I tried to be a friend -a good friend to be exact, on her last moment...
I wish that it could replace all the other time when i cant be there for her..
Selfish i know., i hope she forgive me...

I wrote a note on the day that she passed away, and i kept it..

Yesterday i visited her parent's house and met with her family, including her 2 years old daughter and 3 months old son..
Happy to see that they're in good hands, they will be ok...

I guess now its time to move on,..
That is why i finally decide to write this today..
and i will post the note as well..
Just a reminder that i just need to let it go.. just let it go..

Saat waktu mulai berbicara,..
Nyawa manusia itu tak ada batasnya.
Saat takdir hidup mati tlah terungkap,..
Manusia hanya bisa berserah dan menerima.

Beribu andai terlontarkan,
sejuta mimpi ter-elakan..

Dan kala air mata tak dapat tertahan,..
hanya perih dan pedih yang terasakan.
Kala semua yang nyata hanyalah duka,..
Manusia hanya bisa berserah dan menerima..

Dan relakan saja walau penuh luka,
Dan relakan saja,..

Changi Airport - 16th December 2010 3:06am

Hours to midnite,.. Hours to 2011

2010-12-31T21:27:00.001+08:00

Yap, sekarang pukul 8.20 ditanggal 31 Desember 2010 dan didepan saya ada beberapa pilihan DVD..

Naga2nya, tahun akan berganti begitu saja. Tanpa Hura2, Tanpa suka duka...

Kemarin malam saya sudah mengirim email capsules via ini jadi yah.. tanggung jawab dalam rangka melepas 2010 sudah dilakukan.. dan sekarang hanya perlu untuk melakukan perubahan, perlahan...

Jadi.. ya ya .. Selamat tahun baru, sebentar lagi.. Selamat menonton DVD...

PS : #30harimenulis tampaknya menjadi target untuk Januari, kita lihat saja..

Al-quran dan Endah 'n Rhesa

2010-12-31T01:21:00.000+08:00

Hari ini saya mengunjungi sebuah mall ternama di Jakarta.
Saya berkeliling-keliling sambil membunuh waktu, menunggu para teman yang terlambat tiba..

Bosan, saya memilih menghampiri satu-satunya toko buku di mall tersebut, berharap menemukan salah satu karya penulis2 wanita indonesia yang dahulu sering (bahkan selalu) saya baca dan koleksi.
Mencari nama-nama Ayu utami, Djenar Maesa Ayu, Fira Basuki, Dee Lestari, mmm.. tak ada satupun, kemanakah mereka sekarang? tak adakah karya baru? atau toko buku ini tak menjual karya mereka.. entahlah, tapi yang pasti saya kecewa..

Tetap berkeliling di dalamnya, saya terhenti disebuah seksi..
Tumpukan AL-quran dan buku keagamaan berada didepan saya.. saya termangu, diam,.. memandang..
Mata saya terpaku kesalah satu Al-quran, bersampul coklat, kecil, mungil, namun tetap Al-quran, dengan terjemahan..
Tangan saya tergerak untuk meraih, saya membuka satu persatu lembaran..
Saya membalik Al-quran tersebut, melihat harga..
Saya berjalan menuju kasir, saya membayar..
Yap, saya membeli sebuah Al-quran, Al-quran pertama yang saya beli, saya membeli Al-quran pertama saya..
Bagi orang lain mungkin ini biasa saja, tapi buat saya, ini sedikit tidak biasa..

Anyway, Setelah membayar, saya berkeliling kembali,..
Melihat jam ditangan, masih ada waktu,,..
Saya menghampiri toko CD (aneh, dulu kita menyebutnya Toko Kaset, tapi karena sekarang Format Kaset sudah tidak banyak (mungkin sama sekali tidak) dijual, dan hanya ada Format CD, sudah selayaknya kita menyebutnya toko CD...)..
Mencari-cari, pilah pilih, akhirnya saya memutuskan untuk membeli CD endah 'n Rhesa..
Duo musisi indonesia yang juga suami istri..
Mimpi yang terwujud, mimpi mereka.. SALUT!
CD pertama endah 'n Rhesa saya diberikan oleh salah satu Om, saat itu saya menerimanya dengan terharu, hanya saya yang terharu,..
Bagi orang lain mungkin ini biasa saja, tapi buat saya, ini sedikit tidak biasa..

Jadi sebuah Al-quran dan CD endah 'n Rhesa...
Penunjuk 'jalan' Manusia dan Mimpi yang terwujud..
Bagi orang lain mungkin ini biasa saja, tapi buat saya, ini sedikit tidak biasa..
Memandang 2011 dengan kepala terangkat..
365 hari menuju indhi yang lebih baik.. Amin..

29 Desember 2010

2010-12-29T23:48:00.001+08:00

I noticed, i have lots of social media items that i rarely update..
I have 3 blogspot site, 2 multiply, 1 Wordpress, 1 Tumblr, 1 Myspace, 1 Reverbnation, 1 Twitter, 1 Facebook, mmmm , yeap.. that's it.. and the only site that i updates daily is only twitter..

I like to write, previously.. and i did it in Bahasa...
Nowadays, i seldom writes, and when i do, im doing it in English, which i dont know why..

Anyway, the reason i open this site again and start writing is because the year is going to end soon.. and as always, i feel obligate to review my life and to have hope on it...

Unfortunately, last year target for 2010 was a simple target, which is to resign from that current job and start savings, which unfortunately again did not went well..

I did resign though, and got a decent Job, but didnt go well with the saving.. NOpe it didnt...

I lost a friend mid this month, She was a mother to two very young children..
I havent wrote anything about her eventhough i wanted to.. but it just, lately it's very difficult for me to write something..anything..

There's lots of Marriages this year, and lots of babies which i loveeeeeeeeees very much,, i am a happy aunty.. :)

I watched (for the very first time) Indonesian football, aaaaaand.... what else..

Sigh.. i always forgot those moments in life that's important or supposed to be important enough to remember...

I guess i need to write more.. Make use of those sites and start tp write again..
Gosh...its 2010, im 27 now.. 3 more years to go for a new life indhi...!!! :)

Hukum alam

2010-08-16T23:33:00.002+08:00

"when you become older, friends become lesser.. and at the end the best one will stand still with you, forever..."

Obrolan tengah malam dengan seorang kawan yang tak seberapa dekat..
Tentang betapa dengan bertambahnya umur, seleksi alam menipiskan jumlah pertemanan kita yang pada akhirnya menyisakan mereka2 yang bertahan... mereka yang terbaik - untuk kita..

Bukan berarti mereka2 yang perlahan menghilang bukan teman yang baik, hanya saja mereka lebih baik saat menjadi teman dari orang lain...

We just tired to pretend, we just want to be ourself, let it out, spend the night in laugh and tears without judgement and ugly thoughts and only few that can stand us as what we are.. and only few that we can stand to spend our time with... and that is normal and acceptable, that is what we called "hukum alam"...

Hanya saja,.. kadang sedikit miris saat pada akhirnya menyadari bahwa the one that can stand you are far too little... and those who can just too far away..
No one to blame,..
Just like that.. "hukum alam"...

With love,
Indhi

bring me somewhere else..

2010-04-16T01:01:00.000+08:00

3 years 2 month,,, that's how long i've been in this small country called Singapore...
Spent in 3 different office, 5 different house and it's just feel tooo long..

(Please bring me somewhere else) begging myself to work my ass double hard so my talent and spirit can bring me to somewhere new..

Please...

all is good, all is good for my soul

2010-03-23T22:29:00.001+08:00

-image courtesy of Yoga Priyanto

terima kasih bonita and the hus Band,.. kalian sudah memberi cicip saya kenangan masa lalu dan kenyamanan yang saya cari2 di negara ini.. walaupun cuman secicip dan beberapa hari saja, ini masih lebih baik daripada tidak sama sekali,,

-Blujazz 17&18 March 2010

mimpi

2010-03-13T15:32:00.001+08:00

Mencoba mengingat-ingat mimpi tadi malem..
adegan interview dihadapan dua bule..
begitu lugas, begitu menarik, begitu riil...
tiba-tiba pintu terbuka,
dua bule tersebut berdiri dan memberikan tangannya, tangan gue menerima tangan mereka satu persatu..
mereka berkata sesuatu seperti welcome atau apalah, tapi yang paling menarik adalah saat pintu terbuka, orang yang muncul dari belakang pintu itu adalah.. spupukuuuu...hahahhha,,,
si ayu yang muncul, yaoloooo..

entah gue yang ternyata kerja di perbankan di indo, atau ayu yang ternyata kerja di perusahaan arsitektur asing di singapore.. tapi mimpi itu berasa nyata.. hahahha
mimpi.aneh..

-ciao

In Memoriam

2010-03-13T01:16:00.002+08:00

In Memoriam : Indra Syarif born on 13 March 1957 , A great son, good loving husband, and a caring father. We miss you. always.

rindu.jakarta

2010-03-13T01:10:00.000+08:00

Akhir-akhir ini suka susah nulis, ampe-ampe twitter pun yang cuman sepatah dua patah, gak ada sedikit pun kata yang terketik dan terkirim...

Melihat blognya si spups , gue ngeliat sebuah kata yang menggelitik otak gue,...
dan kata itu adalah Confidence..

Si "confidence" ini tampaknya lagi main petak umpet sama gue, susah banget dicarinya..
padahal tadinya doi jadi kekuatan ampuh gue, senjata andalan yang menemani gue dalam perang kehidupan. Akhir-akhir ini gue ngerasa si "confidence" ini udah semakin jago ngumpetnya, gue udah mulai jadi menyedihkan dan kejangkit penyakit depresi kronis. Muka gue udah jadi 5 tahun lebih tua, dan tubuh gue udah lebih lemah dari umur seharusnya. Bijimana inih.. gue mulai khawatir!

Sang pacar setia menyemangati dengan caranya yang yaaa,, caranya lah.. yang seharusnya bikin gue sadar dan mulai teriak-teriak manggil si confi kembali...
tapi entah kenapa, gue gak bergerak.. gue malah bersender di tembok sambil menutup mata dan menambah hitungan membiarkan si confi mencari tempat bersembunyi yang paling Te O beh..
Semangat dari pacar pun sudah tidak mempan.. dan gue semakin depresi...

Pertanyaan-pertanyaan pun mulai bermunculan, tentang hidup, tentang prioritas, tentang mimpi..
tapi gak pernah ada jawaban, karena gak ada tandem buat berdiskusi, buat berargumentasi...
Setiap ucapan pacar sudah bisa ditebak oleh otak dan kuping sudah menolak untuk mendengar..
sayangnya, hanya pacar yang gue punya -saat ini, dan sayangnya lagi, ternyata itu gak cukup.. hufhh..

Tiba-tiba gue jadi rindu jakarta, disana gue ada teman, otak kedua,ketiga,keempat dan seterusnya yang bisa membantu gue mencari si confi dan mengeluarkannya dari persembunyiannya..
gue bener-bener rindu jakarta...
disana ada teman..
gue.rindu.

waktunya menunggu...

2010-02-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

ok, senjata perang sudah disiapkan, peluru sudah ditembak dan sekarang waktunya menunggu.. waktu yang paling menegangkan, dengan sekali tembak berharap angin berada di pihak kita, dan tiada penghalang yang tiba-tiba melintas, dan dalam sekejap peluru ku menancap ke sasaran... aku harap...

setelah libur seminggu kurang setengah hari.. saatnya untuk kembali bekerja /-.-\
huhuhu.. berharap oh berharap, dengan doa dan finger crossed.. ada panggilan yang kembali... amin..

btw anyway hose... gak tau kenapa akhir2 ini dirumah gue banyak nyamuk.. tapi gak gigit.. cuman berterbangan, bersliweran.. ganggu,.. tapi gak gigit... huhuhu, kemaren udah disemprot sih tapi nyamuknya kayaknya sakti berat, supernyamuk... huhuhuhu,,..

another story, gue punya keponakan baruuuuu... anaknya jaka dan ira, teman2 gue di Singapore.. nama anaknya selama masih dikandungan selalu dipanggil bebe, yang lahir ternyata laki, bapak-ibunya ngasih namanya Zeeshan atthalah sapa gitu-intinya susah huhuhuhu, kayaknya gue akan stay manggil dia bebe, ampe diumurnya bebe udah sadar bahwa nama bebe gak pantas untuk seorang lelaki -.- , maafnya jakir.. tapi saya orang indo yang memilih yang pintas, kalo ada kesempatan ...huhuhuu...

ciao..

so long, my loved one say so long..

2010-02-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

Just heard another sad story today..
and the tunes just keep on coming..
2010 is like year of sadness., but i hope these are all for the best.. i hope

-20100209-

So long,
My loved one say so long..
till we meet again.

And now, now is not the time for us,
it's not the right time for us..
till we meet again.

Farewell,
It's been a good ride dear farewell
and we were in love.

And now, we see that we're not meant to be,
we are just not meant to be.
So long dear, farewell.

I love you, you love me
but we're just not meant to be
I love you, you love me
but we're just need not be
together together, forever forever,

So long, my loved one say so long..

-farewell song

who was in love and in pain

2010-02-09T00:10:00.000+08:00

Just uploaded a new song, for a friend of mine.. who was in love and in pain.

I feel you..

-20100209-

[to those who was in love and in pain]

i don’t know why..

there’s just something in life that can’t be describe

they were in love,

and then it just happened and what is left just pain

he told her that all just gone away

he hope time will heal her pain

but he took her fairy tales away, he took her fairy tales away..

I don’t know why..

something that seems to be right, can just be torn apart

they were happy,

and he just forget what it felt to be

and she cried, remembering memories..

but he just walk away, he just walk away..

and that is life,

and that is love..

and i don’t know why.

But that is just,

Love life… their love life…

and she cried….

—Mind the recording, its just an attempt recorded at casasarina -

Tumbeler, tumbeling..

2010-02-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

akhir2 ini gue suka tumblr-an.. kayaknya medianya pas banget buat gue yang suka gak fokus, yang cuman pengen ngungkapin sedikit kata dan suka melompat-lompat cerita...

Baru-baru ini denger cerita dari teman yan gemar bercerita, kabarnya salah satu teman permainan ada yang menduakan kekasih hatinya, setelah bertahun-tahun bersama.. dan akhirnya dia menyesal..
gue cuman mnyayangkan, seharusnya ini tidak terjadi bukan?
tapi sedikit menjadi ketakutan, kalau mereka saja bisa mengalami ini,.. begitu pula dengan gue dan si tompel...

Kalo tiba-tiba dia kesamber geledek pengen selingkuh gimana? kalo tiba-tiba ada yang deketin dia trus dia terhanyut gimana..
yah semuanya sih cuman gimana dan gimana dan gimana..
tapi kayaknya kalau bisa itu terjadi, gue akan memilih untuk mundur dan menyerah...
bukan karena gue kalah, tapi karena dia lemah..

Eniwei, cerita selanjutnya adalah, teman saya ada yang akan menikah tahun ini...
dan dia begitu bahagiaaaa.. saya ikut berbahagia..
semoga segala perjuangan dia, penantian dan kesabaran dia akhirnya terbalaskan dengan hadirnya si pangeran ini dikehidupannya, dan gak cuman untuk saat ini tapi selamanya..

Bicara tentang pernikahan, Mantan saya pernah (dan selalu) membego-begokan saya karena belum juga menikah,.. tapi saya tidak merasa bego karena saya bahagia.. kalo buru-buru menikah tapi gak bahagia gimana??, toh saat ini saya menjalani semuanya dengan sadar, dan saya memilih untuk terus bersama si tompel dan menunda pernikahan, demi prioritas hidup yang lain.. dan si mantan saya yakin gak akan mengerti, karena buat dia hidup selalu terencana dengan baik..

Udah ah,.. ini lompat-lompat lagi ceritanya...
Sekarang udah bulan Februari..
Portfolio sedang disiapkan, semoga hidup menjadi lebih baik.. Amin...

cuman satu target - 2010

2010-01-17T17:31:00.000+08:00

Sekarang tanggal 17 Januari 2010, dan sama sekali belum membuat resolusi..

bukan karena malas, tapi gak ada alasan aja buat bikin resolusi...

tapi ada satu point yang mesti gue lakuin taun ini.. HARUS! which is :

Gue mau resign dari kantor gue, target gue simple.. mau nabung.! kerjaan arsitek apapun, gue cuman mau nabung..

itu aja.. simple..

that's all i need

2010-01-13T00:25:00.000+08:00

this is going to be something.. i hope :

- love is good
  when we believe in..
  and its you and me, no matter what the world will see
  and we believe in.. yes, in you and me

  people can be just romancing
  but we just simply in love, no matter what they always say
  we still believe in.., we still be you and me
  we still be you and me..

  t h a t ' s a l l i n e e d

  thats all that i need...
  to be, to be with you, with you
  just as simple as i love you
  to be, to be with you..
  simply in love
  together in love
  still be you and me..

  when we reach that moment
  when the world will see
  how strong we're together
  and we still in love.. still be you and me..
  oo.. i hope they'll see..

-singapore, 20100113

realita

2010-01-03T22:02:00.000+08:00

Kadang manusia senang membuat hidupnya menjadi lebih rumit..
memainkan perasaan dan memilih kondisi yang penuh drama,.
Logika pun dikesampingkan, bahkan dihiraukan dan dibiarkan megap2 diujung ruang minta diperhatikan.

Hidup itu penuh pilihan, dan itu tidak mudah! gue paham.. gue mengerti..
tapi bukan berarti harus selalu memilih jalan pintas.., jalan yang mudah untuk dipilih dan lari dari konsekuensi..

Hari ini, merupakan hari yang cukup rumit..
penuh dinamika.. tapi ini realita.
Pagi yang haru karena waktunya tiba untuk berpisah sejenak dengan keluarga..
dilanjutkan dengan ketegangan dibandara karena hampir ditinggal oleh pesawat..
perasaan bahagia karena kekasih hati telah menanti di pintu kedatangan..
ditambah rasa senang karena beberapa teman dekat berkumpul dirumah dan menyantap oleh-oleh bersama-sama,,
tiba2 berita sedih datang mengabarkan ayah dari seorang teman dekat telah meninggal dunia..
dan kacau balau dimalam hari, acak aduk antara sedih, marah, kecewa, kesal, hanya untuk sebuah drama yang gue tau benar itu tidak seharusnya terjadi...
tapi faktanya ini realita... dan seharusnya hanyalah seharusnya..
seharusnya gue gak perlu berpisah jauh dari keluarga,
seharusnya penjaga counter tiket tidak perlu lelet dalam melayani penumpang,
seharusnya saya bisa satu pesawat dengan kekasih hati dan terbang bersama,
seharusnya beberapa teman yang lain juga ikut berkumpul di rumah,
seharusnya ayah teman saya tak perlu meninggalkannya begitu cepat,
dan seharusnya seorang teman saya yang lain bisa lebih bijak dalam menjalani hidupnya...

realita memang berat, kadang kita tidak kuat untuk menanggungnya..
tapi gue berharap.. berharap dengan sangat,..
seseorang disana, salah seorang yang gue anggap seorang kawan..
seperti halnya kawan yang lain, gue berharap dia akan berfikir..
jalan pintas hanyalah pilihan orang yang malas, gegabah dan egois,
dan teman, gue tau elo bukan orang yang kayak gitu..
kita gak perlu drama, ini realita.. sadarlah, dan hidup mungkin akan terasa lebih mudah untuk dijalani..

2009 in words

2009-12-30T01:54:00.004+08:00

owkey, now its my turn to try and recap for the things that i've achieved and most memorable moments in year 2009 before i start my resolution for year 2010..
i think its best for me to recap based on my 2009 resolution which is also was wrote in this blog and as what i copy the list was like this :

1.mengurangi nonton DVD-TV series.. - i think this one is almost there hehehe.
2.olahraga seminggu dua kali ( Renang dan Joging) dan makan sayur di wikend paling gak 5 suap. - ok, the sports are totally not there yet but the veggie is definitely there! proud of myself and also my bf for making me eat it!! :)
3.beli digicam..- still not there!
4.nulis di JONG lagi atau wadah lainnya, minimal dua bulan sekali - nope, i think architecture is not my life, well at least this is my work-life just until my sister finish her school..
5.mulai berfikir serius tentang arsitektur dan apakah benar arsitektur adalah hidup gue..- answered in item no 4
6.mulai konstruksi satu bangunan dan ngawas lapangan- definitely there!
7.finish reading "you are what you eat" dan mengimplementasikannya,.. (tough one!) -not even one page :(
8. nambah resep baru yang bisa dimasak.- hahaha, not even there!
9.mengatur finansial dengan benar, paling gak biar bisa nabung sedikit tiap bulannya - totally cannot! impossible to do unless you want me skip my lunch and dinner.. :(
10.jalan-jalan paling gak ke satu tujuan yang belum pernah didatengin - done, bintan and redang
11.tambah sehat!- dont think so.. :(
12. dan update blog tiap minggunya. - ha ha ha...

owkey, those are the results for my 2009 resolution...
and for most memorable moments in 2009 goes to :

1. redang trip.. the fish was beautifull, i actually touch a fish, a life one!
2. having an awesome house mates that i dont think ill ever have any better ever.. love them all..
3. doing construction all through from design until site supervising,.. i think it is quite awesome..
4. No doubt concert!!!! watching my idol since secondary school live!!! and additional gift is i met the guitarist (tom) face to face by accident and took a picture with him.. cool isnt it!!
5. Cold play concert, my boyfriend went all crazy for this and im happy that he did.. the concert was awesome.. watch it with my lovely cousin also, and it was all yellow :)
6. i met alot of good people which was short term become close and also in months just disapeared,, such as justin, romke, suzzane, and many other..
7. my birthday, the surprise and all the friends that celebrates with me.. im gratefull.. and i love my boyfriend more and more..
8. i wrote a song again.. its been awhile since the last one..
9. Helping (i hope) my friend, to make a huge decision in her life.. i hope she's happy now.

i think thats about it.. its a short list for one year of life :(
and i dont think it was my best year also, even though im thankful to still have work and able to support my family, still have my boyfriend to stand beside me and keepin my spirit up high, to still have good friends around in good and bad..

i just hope 2010 everything will be better and i can be more relax.. i was a bit grumpy this year and not happy.. so hopefully,.. anyway i will do my resolution list tomorrow..

ciao..

- with love, indhirasagita

add one to my age, please..

2009-12-05T00:25:00.006+08:00

One Two Three Four , Tell me that you love me more

Sleepless long nights
That is what my youth was for

youth, funny to say yet i still feel young even my skin,

my strength and my age did not agree well with it...

Old teenage hopes are alive at your door

Left you with nothing but they want some more

those hopes still there, still wait for a little bit lights of true..

and its still the same ol' hopes..

old teenage hopes and yet its still alive at my door..

One, two, three, four, five, six, nine, or ten

Money can't buy you back the love that you had then

add one to my age, and reminding myself everyday..

money can't buy back the love that you had then...

* happy birthday to myself..

** part lyrics from 1234-feist

all about will..

2009-11-18T23:29:00.002+08:00

i understand that actually i can do many things in life,and i want a lot from my life.. i want to be a song writer, i want to be a coffee shop slash hang-out place owner, i want to be a single mom, i want to be a writer, and so on, and so on...

but, i also understand that none of that thing above will ever give education fees or lunch and dinner for my family.. it will only bring pleasure to me, myself and only.. that is why i do what i have to do which what i am doing now.. working like hell in a field that only GOD knows why im still on it..

and they say its all about will, when there's a will there's a way ,so they speak...
okay,let me describe to you this, if that quote is somewhere even near to right, that means i can still have chance to do what i want to do but only then im no longer young and those things doesnt seems fun anymore.. so i do get what i want but not exactly the way i wanted it to be,..

tonite, i am just imagining things, if only my life like this and like that., if only i stay in Jakarta that time and proceed with my freelances and making music life,if only i choose art of dancing instead of architecture for my major, if only this , if only that.. and it is just if only and actually none of it matters because at the end i know that i would've still choose the path that is safe,.. maybe end up in the same path.. because of the love that i have, and the mind that smart enough to think what is right to do..

nevermind, dont mind me.. this is just one of those nights, when my minds wander around to get some answer for the question that i have, and end up with no answer and only make me sleepy.. so good night people out there., have a happy life, good day and good night (that is what i always say to a taxi driver whenever i go to and off from work, its just one of my way to give spirits to myself by saying it to others)...

pilihan...

2009-10-27T23:17:00.002+08:00

Hidup penuh dengan pilihan,

bahkan saat kita terpojok dan merasa buntu,

percayalah kita masih bisa memilih..

Manusia kadang penuh emosi dan berpikir tentang dirinya sendiri...

memikirkan fasad dan penilaian orang lain atas kelakuannya..

hanya karena mereka berfikir tentang penilaian.,

Namun selalu, kita disisakan ruang untuk berfikir..

menyaring dan merumuskan semua kata yang mereka ucap

apakah semua yang terbaik untuk kita, atau untuk mereka... dan nama mereka..

dan kita harus memilih..

dengan segala kesadaran dan keyakinan..

yang terasa benar untuk kita..

sebelum semua sudah terlambat,

dan yang tersisa hanya penyesalan...

20091027 - yang terbaik untukmu kawan, hanya yang terbaik..

i want to finish my story...

2009-10-13T00:18:00.002+08:00

setengah taun berlalu.. dan mandeg di 974 kata...

apa yang gue tunggu,,..

waktu?

makan itu waktu,.

bersembunyi dibalik kata,.. tanpa aksi reaksi dan membiarkan semua terlunta..

nomer dua harus gue selesaikan.. gue tau..

ya.. gue tau..

hubungan ku dan nya...

2009-10-07T00:23:00.002+08:00

Don't worry.. about a thing, every little thing is gonna be alright...

Kerjaan menggila gila gila gila gila..

gitar tak tersentuh, twitter sehari sekali, blog sebulan sekali, nonton udah gak sempet.. ini gila., saya bisa gila..

dipikir2, kenapa sih harus begini.. kalo cinta mah masih bisa dipaksa.. tapi kok kadang lebih ke karena "nanggung"..

sana sini udah bikin tambah frustasi, ada yang udah bikin film lah, ada yang udah bikin album, ada yang udah ngompose lagu, ada yang udah terbang kemana, ada yang udah ini udah itu.... aerrghhhhhhh//....

frustasi... tapi content... gak ada reaksi..

arsitektur arsitektur.. kenapa sih hubungan kita mesti seperti ini., mau gak kita saling memahami.. mencintai dan menghargai..

yah yah boleh ya......

life's suck and so do i..

2009-09-01T23:58:00.002+08:00

Baru aja dapet link ini dari facebook temen. Dari 5 kali nyoba selalu yang keluar paling tebel bagian sportsnya. Masa sih gue "berbakat" di olahraga.. napas aja suka ngos2an, lagian ,.. seharusnya pertanyaannya.. masa sih personality gue bisa di cek dari "data di internet" ? .. syerem juga membayangkannya..

eniwei.. akhir2 ini hidup semakin ribet,, kerjaan, hidup, keuangan.. intinya.. nulis blog ada di urutan kesekian..

bahkan, mengucapkan "mohon maaf" sebelum puasa aja jadi gak dilakukan.. life's sucks.. i mean, mine...

kehilangan arah, kehilangan tapak..

ditambah lagi.. No doubt mau ke singapore.. mimpi masa mudaku.. menonton no doubt life..

10 tahun menunggu dan tibalah saatnya..

hanya saja.. dunia memang gak mudah untuk dijalanin.. No doubt dateng pas diminggu hari raya... which means gue lagi di jakarta.. ironic.. thats my life.. mine..

gak tau lagi mau ngomong apa..

tapi karena belum sempet ngomong..

Met menjalani ibadah puasa.. semoga kita menjadi manusia yang lebih baik...

dan maafkan saya.. kalo saya ada salah, dan pastinya ada..

life sucks.. and so do i..

-indhi yang penuh emosi negatif-

hampir KO

2009-08-26T00:51:00.002+08:00

kapankah blog ini akan bertambah cerita..

bahkan saya tak ada waktu untuk ber-tweet-ria..

oo kerjaan oo kerjaan...

sampai kapan kau akan terus mengikatkuuu..

cerita cinta.. (di tengah malam)

2009-07-29T00:15:00.004+08:00

Argh gue lemah dengan film yang ceritanya tentang pasangan yang dipandangan rendah hubungannya tapi tetap bertahan...

Baru kelar nonton Radit dan Jani... ah mungkin filmnya biasa aja..tapi tetep bikin gue menye menye..

ah... pokoknya begitulah.. kata sapa cinta aja cukup.. kalo memang menurut lo idealis lebih penting daripada isi perut berarti lo belum siap berkomitmen.. setuju gak??

Tapi cinta itu memang buta.. tapi buta dan bodoh kan tetep berbeda.. cinta sih cinta,,, argh..jadi esmosi ginih.. heheh..

tapi gue jadi inget masa gue muda.. alah.. noraknya keluar..

ASAL hepi!!! hehehehhe..

rasanya pengen buktiin ke dunia kalo yang gue pikir dan gue pilih itu benar! dan mereka salah...

Tapi kok akhir filmnya begitu.. :( , apa emang cinta buta itu beneran buta??

apa pada akhirnya mereka beneran bodoh, bukan beneran bener??

aduuuuhhh.. jadi konsepnya bakal selalu gitu nih.. cinta bakal kalah ama perut,..

salah sapa dong kalo kita jatuh cinta??

kenapa dunia berkonspirasi untuk terus membuktikan kalo cinta bakal kalah ama perut, ama baju, ama tas LV,aduuuhhh..

MAKAN TUH KRINCINGAN...!

hahaha,,,

menurut gue, setelah 6 tahun pacaran.. gue masih percaya ama Cinta!

walaupun dunia masih terus berkonspirasi tapi gue tetep masih percaya....

prinsipnya cinta adalah cinta dan gak akan buta ataupun bodoh kalo dua2nya berusaha dan percaya..

dua rius.. cinta gak selamanya buta dan bodoh, (walaupun kebanyakan mungkin iya... )

dan cinta bisa hidup berdampingan kok ama perut, kan elo gak perlu ampe buncit.. yang penting seimbang..

hehehe.. dan gue udah bukan 17 tahun lagi.. jadi cinta monyet udah lewat.. cinta buta juga udah di-pas, dan mata gue udah lewat masanya merem...

jangan nyerah ama yang lo percaya bener...

jangan kalah ama iming2 tas LV, mobil mewah dan rumah megah..

(psstt.. jangan percaya kalo laki2 bilang mereka selingkuh cuman pas pacaran doang dan bakal setia kalo udah menikah... kesetiaan itu kebiasaan... gak ada disetel2 on-off.. )

ps : topik ini memang campur aduk, tapi blog ini punya gue kok.. jadi bebas cuy :p

monday mindset..

2009-07-27T01:07:00.003+08:00

what may come tomorrow.. let it be a mystery..

but what i do know now.. that i wish there is something new towards monday, outside the feeling of laziness and uneasiness whenever passing my sunday night.

there will always be a happy ending, you only need to adjust your perspective..

2009-07-24T00:30:00.005+08:00

Just finish watching Prison break, final season, last two episodes...

Heartbreaking..

to end like that.. its just heartbreaking..

and it makes me think.

People always fight for happiness,..

With courage, with tears, with hope..

they believe that happy ending awaits at the end of the tunnel, thats why they never give up.

But at the end, when the ending arrives, its not quite as what they hope for..

They still got what they need... But something has lost, along the way.

For example, this prison break movie... after few seasons, in and out prisons and a lot of running, finally they are free..

but unfortunate, not all of them, there are sacrifices.

To think to have that certain feeling, to get what you need after longing for a long-difficult- times but at the same time you lost something, something that would have make the happiness complete.

It is just frustrate me.. I am frustrated.. for a while.

I cry like a baby (and maybe i blame my PMS also for that..).

They only want to be happy. they only want to be together,..

why cant the world just let them... And at the final moment ,when all the fights finally bring them together, he just got to die. And the end that should have been happy ending, only bring me tears.

I know it is just a movie, but at least this movie bring me back to use my brain to think and my heart to feel. (after a very long time...),

and then i think again..

Maybe Happy ending do exist, you only need to look from another perspective.

At the end they are free (its what they want), they have money to start their new life, they will have baby, and Scoffield no need to live his life in pain because of his tumor.

In this way, they will still be happy, but only with a bit of bitterness,..

i think it is JUST , i repeat, it is JUST to remind all of us.. That happiness will come to us eventually, but it will not come easy..

So when we already have it, please do Thank GOD for it and appreciate what you do have by taking a good care of it. And do remember, After every end will always lead to a new beginning.

nite nite all..

Angkat tanganmu untuk indonesia (Raise your hand for indonesia..)

2009-07-22T21:33:00.004+08:00

we are not afraid...!!!

The power of youth has come..

and we are spreading to all part of the world,

that We are not afraid..

We believe now we are better..

Indonesia can be better..

Now we gather around..

and believe us we are not afraid..!

All terrorists, dont even try to believe what you did is right!

Taking lives will never be right under the name of GOD and any beliefs.

All terrorists believe me you better be scared..

The time for your fall has come, and your followers will see..

all they did are only based on your rage, anger and your pride..

and hell be waiting for you.. in this life and any others,,

Cause now we will not stay still!

and believe me WE WILL FIGHT!!!!

With power of GOD, Strength of Good will, and believe on what is right.

WE WILL FIGHT!

for better Indonesia, for better world!

spreading power of words to all of the world, Indonesia will not fall and ruined by terrorism,,

We are still alive..

Help us to fight terrorism..

tell them that we are not afraid!,,

now say with me..

WE ARE NOT AFRAID!

saya berenang...

2009-07-22T20:49:00.001+08:00

saya berenang hari ini..

dan saya senang...

buku paulo coelho ku bertambah 4 lembar.. dan saya sedang nonton tv..

senang..

siklus hidup..

2009-07-22T01:25:00.002+08:00

siklus hidup gue...

bangun siang-kerja-makan-kerja-pulang-internetan-tidur... bosaaan!!

masih banyak banget padahal buku yang belum dibaca..

ada gitar dikamar yang berdebu menunggu untuk dimainkan..

kertas2 bertebaran menunggu awal dari sebuah cerita..

tapi yang terjadi setiap ada waktu luang, laptop putihku dibuka, dengan facebook,twitter,yahoo dan gmail saja dibuka dan dipelototi hingga tak ada update lain yang muncul dilayarnya,,

bosan,,

tapi ironisnya, udah tau membosankan, tapi saja dilakukan..

aku kalah.. aku lemah, aku menyerah...

tekhnologi yang membuat kreatifitasku mandeg.. dan sekali lagi , kesalahan bukan pada toolsnya.. tetapi pada pengguna,..

huah, sekarang sudah jam 01.30, dan badan sudah terlalu lelah untuk membaca, atau bermain gitar, atau menulis cerita...

besok kembali ke bangun siang-kerja-makan-kerja-pulang dan internetan lagi.. (mudah2an diselipi dengan berenang dan sedikit membaca..)

demi indhi yang lebih baik! ciattttt!

...

2009-07-07T01:01:00.002+08:00

people sometimes do change, and when they did, they amazes me..

terkadang yang tersisa hanya iri.. dan dengan muka meringis dia berkata "kau menyedihkan.."

-july 6th,2009-

tribute to Michael jackson 1958 -2009

2009-07-02T00:10:00.009+08:00

im still at state of shock..

still cant believe, that i must spend the rest of my life knowing that i will never had a chance to watch one of the greatest performer performs life, ever! :(

huge regret...

Michael Jackson, there's no words to describe his existence in my life.. he made a huge differences in my music and dance life.. he's one talented child and person, who may already change a lot of person's life and one of them is mine..

May he rest in peace..

he deserves every peace in the world as he did tried to bring peace and love to the world through his musics..

( may his music lives forever )

Optimus prime is HOT!!!

2009-06-26T00:47:00.005+08:00

I welcome back Mr. Prime!

Still hot, still Powerful and he still Win.. :)

If you're looking for a fun, funny and exciting movie.. Transformer 2 is a go!

I'll give all the credit to the effects!

some part need to be questioned why even they bother to have that..

Like the "species" scene wannabe - when the "additional cast" girl suddenly have a machine tail and also the part when Sam was dead and met up with the prime's ghost..

naaa.. we dont need those scenes, AT ALL..

Nevertheless, its still one Hot movie., they really have a lot of budget for this one.. a lot of new Autobots and Decepticons appear in the movie,.. one hell of effects!!!! awesome..

i think i'll go for 2nd time maybe sometimes at the end of this week...

wish list...

2009-06-26T00:31:00.006+08:00

Olympus E-P1

Thanks to my friend, fakhrur.. i know about this camera...

Its so cool!!!!, even though a little bit pricy but still cool!!!

i want one for my birthday, along with Starck watch and Trip to Japan..

may my wishes comes true.. amin!

terminator:salvation and bunch of dvds

2009-06-01T22:45:00.005+08:00

im not a big fan of terminator... but i like this one.. christian bale give extra 20 points to the movie... :)

part of arnie's ass... mmm.. not helping.. heehe..

but its a go.. you have to watch it in cinema..

u can feel the 'darkness' more with the surround system.. !!

last week is really a movie week, i watch toy story 1 & 2, IT, 6:30, shutter and troy! waaw!

when u dont have internet around, dvd player become verryy handy :)

hopefully tomorrow our internet devices will come and we welcome back civilization! :)

ciao...

-- Post From My iPhone

STAR TREK IS VULCAN AWESOME!!!

2009-05-09T13:46:00.006+08:00

A MUST WATCH MOVIE....!!!!

all of you out there, a fan or not a fan... believe me.. this movie is an out of this century movie..

The details on the sets, the act, the storyboard, the script, the jokes, Zachary Quinto (Sylar in Heroes) hehehe..

Definitely a must watch movie.

I dont want to spoil anything for you here.. just go now, buy your ticket, sit tight and ENJOY!!! :)

tell me more about life..

2009-05-06T22:14:00.003+08:00

Tell me more about life...

L*Fe is about waking up in the morning and sleep at night..

life is about having someone to love and someone to hate..

life is about having a dream, and stuck in reality..

life is about disappointed towards someone/thing and the next day you forgot about it..

life is about deal with time, pressure, fed up about it and the next day you faced the same thing again..

life is about smile when you are full of happiness and cry when you are sad..

life is about smile when you don't want to and still smiling even you feel like want to cry..

life is about smile because people prefer to see you smile and cry when everyone think you better to...

i think i still have a full list for this.. but too tired..

will continue when i remember... hey.. this can put on the list to..

life is about promising something and forget about it..

Logan oh Logan...

2009-05-04T22:14:00.005+08:00

There is nothing more interesting than watching Hugh Jackman running half naked... :)

Ok, now more serious, .. i will give note that this movie is a MUST WATCH IN CINEMA kind of movie.. so screwwww piracyyyy, even though u already watched the pirated one, go to your nearest cinema, buy your own ticket and enjoy your night.. guarantee you will have one h**l of a movie! (at least that's what i felt).

although my other friends not as impressed as i am, i still think that the movie deserve a one thumbs up..

the wolverine character is a well done, plus u can see Liev Schreiber(sabertooth) act that also not disappointing.. (hunk hunk... :p)

Overall, i might say, the story board really gets me, even though half way to end a bit disappointing not to see sabertooth and wolverine do their final combat,.. deadpool character is not interesting at all,i even never know that such a character really exist in the comic book.. (Ryan reynolds 10 minutes of fame... :P)..

I like the way they tell a story about young logan, all the way until he lost his memories.. now i know why.. hahaha.. im not a big fan of comics when i was young, not that i dont like it..

There's a few new and old character inside, OLD one of course wolverine, Col. stryker, Scott, Professor X , NEW team Sabertooth, Gambit, Kestrel, the Blob, and others.. Some of the actors need a bit improvement in their acting, but salute for will.i.am at least he's not as bad as britney or jessica simpsons., :p

So.. no need to think twice, at least if you don't like the story you will enjoy the action or the other way around... ciaoo..

PS : Hugh Jackman also one of the producer for this movie..

4 mei 2009

2009-05-04T21:05:00.003+08:00

saya pernah kompleks..

membicarakan burung yang terbang dan berpikir keras tentang terik dan hujan..

(jari-jari membiru, mulut mengatup..harum pagi terhirup.. traram traram....mimpiku singgah lagi semalam..)

saya pernah rumit..

tak bisa ungkap rasa dengan ucap, hanya huruf tersusun yang bicara, bercerita tentang dia yang saya kasihi dan dia yang saya benci..

(kopi, pena dan kertas sahabatku yang lama tak bertandang, saya ingin pulang....) ..

saya pernah hidup..

penuh dengan angan dan cita yang melimpah, meruah ...

(mimpi2 diudara, bersatu dengan nafas dan nyanyian dari surga dan hasrat2 melayang, berdansa dengan awan, traram.. traram.. traramm.. kemana kau terbang?)

kini saya..

saya begitu wajar.. (dan saya tersiksa..)

saya begitu serupa.. (dan saya tak terima..)

saya tiada beda.. (dan saya kecewa..)

dan saya begitu hampa.. (saya tak bisa apa-apa...)

menyedihkan..tapi menyedihkan...

(mimpiku hanya mimpi, handuk kusampir di pundak dan melangkah memulai hari..

mimpi hanyalah mimpi.. taram traram traram.. ini baru yang nyata, menuju sembilan ke enam yang sama, dengan tujuh yang serupa selama 30 yang kadang 31 dan 29 sampai di tigaratusenamlima selanjutnya...)

-4 mei 2009

SIngapore is a safe place.. i thought..

2009-04-26T22:40:00.003+08:00

Last night,

we were in the city area in Singapore..

and suddenly, there's people running, girls shouting..

i saw peoples run crossing the road, even though the light still green.

and they run, and run..

coming near to our sitting area,

and as they come closer, i can see that its a chasing after,..

there's two guy chasing other guy, one of the guy brought a large knife (we call it golok in indonesia)

and as they reach our makan place, one of the guy threw a chair to the guy's face..

it was horrible, blood in his face,.. the two guys keep on shouting in chinese, with the "golok" in hand threatening the guy...

few horrifying second later, people start to gather around, some was holding their mobile and start calling the police..

the two guys still shouting, but start to walk away from the scene and leaving the other guy shivering and bleeding at the corner..

after the two guys disappear from our sight, the friends of the guy that got beaten came to the scene.. helping him, giving him tissue paper an else...

wuih... so glad that no one really get hurt or anything worse..

just never imagine that in singapore things like these ever happen and even in public area...

i thinks it is very rare, and im not telling that im lucky, but i just happen to be one of the other witnesses in the scene, whom minutes ago, just sitting there, enjoying our drinks with friends..

wuih... i was a bit shock yesterday..

Singapore is getting weirder everyday, people jumping around from their flats, mother killed their own daughter, a conspiracy theory on murder cases.. i understand its not as worst as what maybe happen in Indonesia.. but this is Singapore.., who would've thought...

-indhi-

knowing the movie

2009-04-04T02:56:00.002+08:00

just got home after watching the new nicholas cage's movie, knowing...
my advice, just watch the 3/4 part of the movies and leave the cinema
after that.. believe me, u dont want to ruin your first one hour with
knowing how the movie ends...

i heard that this movie was done by cage's own production after
bangkok dangerous.. well, i admit you have talent in acting cage, i do
like your movies like face off, gone in 60 seconds, nat. treasure and
others... and maybe u have some ambitions, and you already convince us
that u did try to make ure ambitions comes true... but just face it..
ure making movies thingy is ruining all the good things about yourself
and your acting..so do yourself a favor..
just stay in acting pleaseeee...

Sent from my iWhite

yellow butterfly..

2009-03-15T01:44:00.002+08:00

a yellow butterfly passed me by today, fly around me for a while and in
a sudden just dissapear ..

met a new japanese friend today, her name is sanae, just like
shincan mother... and she tought me how to say numbers in japanese but
i just remember siji=7 goke=6...

Sent from my iWhite

today supposed to be his birthday...

2009-03-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Yo MRAZ we sing we dance we steal things together tonite!

2009-03-05T11:25:00.002+08:00

image courtesy of adit toro

cant wait to meet you tonite..
im all yourrrrrssss... hahaha...

Sent from my iWhite

Friday the 13th...

2009-02-13T00:25:00.003+08:00

-- I like my new work.. challenging...! --

I just tried to send a post from my phone.. and it works perfectly.. now i guess i can update my blog more often... (hope so...hehhehe..)..

mmm, lets see.. what's the new buzz in my life..

oo yeah, i think i'll be moving out from my toa payoh's place soon..

very sad, since i love this place (A Lot!) and also the housemates.. sometimes, things arent going as we wanted.. although i hate to move out, but its the realistically-best choice for me at this time.. (i hope)..

i dont know what to write actually, i just need to kill time while waiting for my -cucian- ...and its still 10 more minutes.. mmm.. let me see..

ok 10 minutes passed by...

so see you next time..

i hope with a -tulisan lebih penting-.... hehehhe..

enjoy mine...

2009-01-25T17:13:00.007+08:00

"its fun to be with a group of people..

in a sudden you feel your life is worth to live for"

Yesterday i went to east coast with small group of friends, its a mix of his, mine and friends of friend... funny thing in life, if you met the right person, in a sudden you can feel like you had known them for years..

anyway, my story is not about them, its about what i did yesterday...

after almost 10 years, i play roller blade again...

at first, i thought that it would be very difficult to ride it again, since its been ages from the last time i rode it, plus im not that young anymore.. my weight its not that light anymore.. hehehe..

not very different from what i thought, it was difficult at first.. i keep on trying and forcing myself to get balance.. but as time goes, i get use to it -again- and i just feel young again.. like i went back to the old me 10 years ago.,. im not scared to fall, not scared to act weird.. i just want to run, run as fast as i could... feel the wind feel the joy...

and for seconds, i miss my childhood.. my memory stuck on that very moment, the time when i used to play with my cousins and other's from my neighborhood. how i long for after school time, to just go home, reach my roller blade and play until the sun goes down...

met new friends, rivals who turns to be friends, learn how to do tricks, how to run faster..

we even create our own battle game, ice tea battle... haahhahaha..

i do miss my childhood., the time when i was wild, even though all my other friends is busy with their party, and mall thingy.. i enjoy my neighborhood playground, my -playdate-, ...

and im glad.. im glad i had my time to enjoy my childhood, be a kid and play around, ...i do hope the memories stay forever in my mind.. so i will always remember what kind of person i am.. full of spirit, always try to enjoy life and far from boring... so whenever i start to believe that im a boring person that have a boring life.. i will remember that its not true...

Seven pounds

2009-01-18T14:31:00.002+08:00

Semalem gue nonton film Seven pounds, one word.. breathtaking..!

plootnya, scriptnya, alurnya, ceritanya.. semuanya membuat gue kagum..

mungkin gak semuanya setuju ama gue,

dan mungkin ada yang bilang karakternya terlalu mulia.

tapi menurut gue .. gak ada yang mulia dari karakter itu.. itu begitu manusiawi...

saat seorang manusia terpojok oleh rasa yang gak bisa dia lawan

desperate dan gak mau berperang melawan diri sendiri

manusia akan mencari jalan pintas untuk memperbaiki situasinya

memperbaiki kesalahanya...

cuman, cara yang dipilih ben thomas mungkin lebih -ekstrim- berbeda dari orang2 kebanyakan...

kadang orang memilih untuk menenggelamkan diri dalam keputusasaan, lari ke drugs, alcohol ataupun bunuh diri yang sia2..

walaupun ben thomas tetep egois dalam menyelesaikan masalahnya., tapi dia gak se-egois orang2 kebanyakan...

Film ini di direct ama orang yang sama yang mendirect film pursuit of happyness, Gabriele muccino.

gue berusaha nyari tau scriptwriternya siapa sih karena menurut gue dialognya sangat oke,

tapi gue baru nyadar, selain dari nama sutradara, produser dan aktornya, susah banget buat nyari nama pendukung film yang lainnya :(.

Anyway, its a good film, and WILL SMITH is undoubtably a brilliant actor.

my advice, dont try to look for the story about before you watch it.

just let it flow, and get to know the movies while watching it..

selamat menonton..!

makanduku..

2009-01-15T21:16:00.004+08:00

Thanks to my grandpa, now i feel the NEED to eat fruits every nite.

biasanya sih gue cuman beli jeruk, pir atau apel. tapi malem ini, gue nemu DUKUUUUU..

yap buah duku - yang gue gak tau bahasa inggrisnya apa, hehehe.. - , gue nemu di tukang buah deket stasiun MRT eunos...

girang banget gue pas ngeliat tuh buah, langsung aja gue panggil uncle2 yang jaga, mengintruksikan dengan bahasa tubuh kalo gue mau beli itu duku.. tapi oh tapi ... mata gue membelalak pas ngeliat harga yang tertera di karton diatas tumpukan duku, 5s$ per KILO!!!!!!!?!?!?!?

wat,... 35ribuuuuuuu, .. huhuhu, dapet berapa kilo tuh kalo diJakarta... :( tapi yah karena dah kepalang pengen.. gue tetep beli, dan dikasih harga ama uncle2nya 4.5s$.. yah lumayan lah yeee...

so, when i reach home... gue masukin tuh duku seplastik ke kulkas ya..trus gue siap2 buat makan malem, masak nasi, manasin lauk dan lain2nya... udah kelar makan, gue nongkrong depan tv sambil megang bungkusan duku dengan ekspektasi sangat tinggi untuk bisa kembali merasakan manisnya buah duku... teng teng teng teng,, BO.. DUKUNYA ASEMMM BANGEEEETTT!!!!! huaaaaa... bajigur...keseeeeeeeeelll...

cuman sanggup makan 3 buah abis itu nyeraaahhh, kirain cuman satu-dua duku yang asem, tapi oh tapi... semuanya aseeeemmmmm...

4.5s$ ku melayang... sedih :(

2009 resolution

2009-01-14T23:52:00.008+08:00

Times for resolution...

mengurangi nonton DVD-TV series..
olahraga seminggu dua kali ( Renang dan Joging) dan makan sayur di wikend paling gak 5 suap.
beli digicam..
nulis di JONG lagi atau wadah lainnya, minimal dua bulan sekali
mulai berfikir serius tentang arsitektur dan apakah benar arsitektur adalah hidup gue..
mulai konstruksi satu bangunan dan ngawas lapangan
finish reading "you are what you eat" dan mengimplementasikannya,.. (tough one!)
nambah resep baru yang bisa dimasak.
mengatur finansial dengan benar, paling gak biar bisa nabung sedikit tiap bulannya
jalan-jalan paling gak ke satu tujuan yang belum pernah didatengin
tambah sehat!
dan update blog tiap minggunya.

jadi, tinggal wait and see.. :)

new year, once again...

2009-01-14T22:42:00.007+08:00

God i cannot believe that i have not yet trying to realize that now the year has change,... no more 2008... no more 2008...

terimakasih banyak untuk spupu ku tercinta, suddenly jadi sadar, di tanggal 14 Januari 2009, seorang indhi masih tanpa resolusi, tanpa tujuan,...

ironinya, gue udah menanti-nanti datangnya 2009, yang ntah mungkin terbawa 'aurapercayamistis' nya orang singapore atau apa, gue pengen cepat-cepat meninggalkan 2008 yang agak-agak jadi tahun-kurang-beruntung dan agak-banyak-musibah untuk seorang indhirasagita.... jadi, yap, saya jujur!, saya masih sadar saat terjadinya pergantian tahun.. saya masih melek,wide awake, dikamar jakarta dengan laptop ditangan dan how i met your mother season 1 playing on.. dan tahun baru saya lewat begitu saja, hanya sejenak sadar tahun sudah berganti (terimakasih kepada petasan dan kembang api yang bersahutan di kompleks tercinta). Well,... i did say happy new year to my mom (she's in next door btw) , but that's it.. sepertinya gak ada dorongan untuk berhenti sedetik,sejenak untuk berfikir mengenai hidup (sahabat akrab gue yang udah lama ilang kontak : otak yang mau berfikir rumit!). its like, unconsciously gue gak mau mikirin.. males introspeksi, males bikin resolusi...LAME!.. i know.. i dont know since when i become this kind of indhi.,

ok ok, cukup udah berfikir berputar putar tanpa arah.. just like what my cuz did.. saya mau introspeksi,

see again my 2008... 2008 yang rasanya panjaaaaaaaaaaaaang sekali, tapi ternyata terasa cepat juga..

UNSTABLE!, tempat tinggal pindah2 mulu, kerjaan pindah2 mulu... labil tingkat tinggi..
LOST! sempet meragukan arsitektur.. mungkin masih?? meragukan kemampuan diri dan ketertarikan diri terhadap arsitektur..
berhasil ngedatengin ADEK2 gue ke singapore..
berhasil menyicil MAC book dan melunasinya..
berhasil jalan-jalan ke BANGKOK ..
berhasil mulai nyicil MOBIL buat nyokap
menjual keyboard nya karena berfikir ingin ganti gitar yang menurutnya lebih memicu kreatifitas, yang ternyata setelah dapet hibahan gitar masih aja gak berkarya2.. pada akhirnya sadar kalo kesalahan ternyata ada pada pengguna.. bukan pada tools-nya :(
sempet mulai menulis lagi, dimulai di JONG Arsitek, meskipun gak berlanjut ke artikel nomer 2 (sigh..), alasanya gak ada waktu, yang setelah ditelaah ternyata waktu bukan masalahnya, tetapi lebih ke penggunaan waktu yang gak maksimal.
terlalu banyak nonton DVD -TV series, dan mengakui kalo saya addicted to it. terlalu banyak cerita yang pengen diikutin yang mengakibatkan diri sendiri tidak membuat cerita apapun .
berhenti basket gara-gara fitness trus malah akhirnya berhenti fitness :(
Mensyukuri jadi korban PHK di umur 24 dan dari kantor yang 'makes me go mental' -- ps : this is my personal judgement..
nonton INCUBUS dan THE POLICE
tambah lagi 3 kilo (sigh sigh sigh...)
merasa belum ada perkembangan apapun secara profesionalitas di tahun 2008. :(
merasa ada degradasi secara ke-manusiaan-
selalu merasa was-was tiap akhir bulan :(
merasa cocok di kantor barunya dengan teman-teman kantor yang menyenangkan dan bisa membuatnya jd dirinya sendiri (lagi..)
udah mulai belajar masak, walaupun cuma baru fettucini, konyaku jelly ama telor kembang.. hahaah..

tapi, walaupun banyak kekurangan di tahun 2008, im glad that i could get through that.. and still i got one-two things that im happy for in 2008. dan akhir tahun 2008 paling gak, things starting to moving in different path, gak tau apakah ini bagus apa enggak.. tapi we'll see..

i never know that leaving SAA will be this hard,..

2008-06-11T16:47:00.001+08:00

dan ternyata gue menangis...

gue sadar gue punya kolega yang menyenangkan... they actually are a friend, not only colleague..

ngebacain note2 singkat di kartu besar yang mereka kasih ke gue bikin gue jadi sedih..(even though banyak dari mereka yang cuman pake signature doang jadi gue gak tau itu dari sapa :-p) dan gue sadar, man its though! they such a great friends...but life must go on..,

kalo kata temen gue, someone just got to do what someone got to do... halah! heheheh...

eniwei, 1.5 taun di SAA, banyak kenangannya.... mulai dari nginep di bandara mumbai sendirian, begadang ampe pagi bersama 4 cewek doang, ngerayain ulang taun2.., ampe akhirnya semua yang terjadi di minggu ini ( makan2 di Secret recipe, KFC, Jacks Place, di Kantor... hufhhh)

so at the end i only can say..

Goodbye my lovely friends...

Goodbye my PC

Goodbye my new chair

Goodbye Naval Base project

Goodbye shiomay,mango pudding, and tea

and Goodbye Spring Building...

i will miss you all!,,,

whoa!

2008-05-22T21:34:00.003+08:00

Woah!

ada apa dengan gue!?, AADG man!

bingung bingung bingung.....

not a single thing in my life right now is certain...

i thank to God, for what i have now...

but still, i need to ask myself.. because i really dont know anything about myself at this moment...

its just, i feel like a programmed robot, that only do things that they used to do...

freakin' crazy... and i thought i have principal!

is this the age?

when u start questioning about your life and what you do?

or im to old for this?? ahhahahhaha...

(see.. i always questioning things....shucks!)

never mind...

dont bother...i will forget it b tomorrow anyway .. :)

its 3.13 in the morning...

2007-11-30T03:14:00.001+08:00

its 3.13 in the morning... and im still in the office... can somebody, anybody tell me why....

east coast....

2007-07-08T13:30:00.004+08:00

icil,jane,yanthi,me and pipit..... starring to the sea....

yesterday i went to ayam penyet in joo chiat, its the same branch like on lucky plaza, but this one is more quiet and cozy.... my house mate treat us there, because today is his birthday...

after that we went to east coast, to play bycicle, fun fun fun... hahaha.. i took the tandemcycle, coz i have to take jane with me... :) but its realy nice.... im having a good time and a good sport wakakakkak..

after that we went to clarke quay, coz roi and robin want to take the sling-shot and make a surprise for robin.. woah, tired but having so much fun... after that, anjas,jane and yanti went back to my hous and sleepover..

today, im going to grab some food with didin, maybe want to try padang restaurant in north bridge road, after that want to go to orchard to find present for my bro...

so see ya later...

STEAMBOAT...slurp :P

2007-06-29T23:47:00.001+08:00

Yesterday i went to bugis with my office mate - me,ling,por,niwat,cindy,nita and daniel - go for a steamboat -all u can eat treat.. :) you know, ITS VERRRRRYYYY NICCCCCCCCCCCCEEEEEEE.... hahahaha, i go crazy with the shrimp, mushroom and crab, the trash is all over my plate wakakakakak, even i eat more than niwat.. can u imagine, this whole week is an everyday weekend, very fun..... hahahhahahha.... after that we go to bugis street for shopping, its almost 10 actually but as ussual lah, nita want to shop, also cindy.... but we have a fun nite.... :) -- nita buy a plaing cARD with cartoon drawings, and its cute, the theme is about how ur sex when u after 40, and its hilllarious wakakakka..

and today i went to the 50 th anniversary of naval base secondary school, this is one of SAA's client, and we're on the design proscess for the upgrading of this building... the school is still okay, me and niwat kept thinking why they need to re-build this school.. but the interesting part of this trip, because i notice that the focus of this school (beside of the standard education) is on art, they really triggering the student to learn art, so around the building you can see paintings by the student and its really nice and good, and also they perform on the stage and during the dinner, dancing, playing some music and etc... nice nice... i like this, the faculty and student bond also strong.. hahaha, always hope this kinda thing happened on the government school in indonesia...

so, like ussual, at home already, gettin ready for sleep, can wait for tommorow, im goin to watch die hard 4.0 and the next day i'll watch transformer... waaaaawww this week is very fun!!!!!!!wakakkakakaka....

its been a while..

2007-06-27T23:08:00.001+08:00

yeah, its been a while since my last post rite ? huah, so many things to talk about, but i dont know, the time consuming in this country really making me sick.. all work and work, blaahhh... but anyway, i still enjoying my life here, and hope it'll get better...

yesterday i went out with alia to watch paris je t' aime at alliance francais in sarkies road - near newton MRT... quite nice movie, even (i think) its taken quite long time ( 2hour), and a few of the stories are bizzare, but nice nice.. basically its about love, theres 8 different stories, with different cast and director, which all taken in paris. i like the first story, its about a man that havent found a girl yet, and keep wondering why because he think he's a nice,funny and 'have a car' type guy.. :P and then suddenly there one girl faint near to his car and then he and the other help her and carry her into his car, yeah you know the end lah, finally the girl wake up and then the talk to each other and then theres a chemistry and then VOILA.. they meant to each other... hahahaha... typical, but still nice to imagine, suddenly , out of nowhere you bump to someone you even dont know and the next minute he became the love of your life.... whoa!

then today, i went out with a few friends from the offica for sushi!!!! :) slurp, i was very very hungry, because, we just out from the office at 19.30 and then reach cineleisure at 20.00, after that the que was very long, and we have to wait for almost half and hour..... finally we got the seat and quickly order, i think we become very wild hoahahahha, order soooooo many food (its also because today we have discount for the sushi :P) and im very full at the end.. whoa.. i think i add more fat ., wakakakka.. so much for the diet thing! :P

now, reach home already, feel very tired but happy...
now time to take a hot water-shower, and then sleep (maybe play my keyboard a little bit, im feelin like having a lot of beat recently, need to let it out... )
so, i wish this will become routine post :P

oo yeah, cant wait to watch die hard 4.o this saturday :P i also want to watch transformer, but damn.. fully booked already!! nevermind... still have next week rite?

tahu tidak.... saya memilih berbaring dan menghilang..

2007-05-05T00:34:00.001+08:00

hufff... rasanya akhir-akhir ini gue hanya memilih untuk tidur dan melupakan semuanya...
rasanya ingin berlari sejenak, dan menghempas semua pikiran buruk ini...

rasanya seperti kembali mati...
rasanya ingin sekali hilangkan diri....
rasanya tidak ingin ini terjadi...
tapi rasanya semua sudah terlalu terlambat untuk diperbaiki :(

----berharap dan berharap, kembalikan aku tanpa adanya harapan... sehingga perih itu terbang, dan menghilang......

adakah penyesalan dikala kau mati??)

2007-03-22T22:27:00.003+08:00

pernah aku bernyanyi,
melagukan kesedihan pilu.. rasa rana tanpa batas yang selalu menusuk hati....
menuangkan gejolak hidup satu persatu menjadi kata, menjadi nada.... tanpa terkecuali... tanpa ragu, tanpa malu... tanpa berfikir... ya.. tanpa berfikir...

lama pun telah aku tak memahami inginku, hanya menatap pantulan diri.. dan berakhir dengan pandangan kosong... terlalu lama digerakan dengan pikiran beku yang hanya mengarah pada jawaban akan pertahanan hidupku di keesokan hari.... berteman angka, bertarung dengan mereka.... demi nyawaku di kemudian (kata mereka) demi masa depan...

hati ini masih tersisa kehidupan, aku tahu ...
terdengar bisikan bisikannya yang ingin bebas
terdengar pelan keinginannya yang ingin kembali tertawa..... kembali menangis... (tanpa berpurapura) kembali bernyawa...

huff... lalu aku tertinggal disini dengan kapasitas pikiran menguasai diri terlalu besar....
menyadari mungkin waktunya terbatas..
selagi hati masih sedikit berdetak...selagi masih tersisa rasa di dalam diri
mungkin ini saatnya, tapi tetap aku masih belum beranjak... (bisa atau mau salah satu sama saja kelemahan manusia.... kelemahan ku)

lihatlah esok, kupastikan masih saja seperti ini, memulai hari di denting ke 8 dan mengakhirinya saat sudah tiada lagi terang...
niat untuk berkarya mati kembali ditengah jalan, dan berakhir lagi dengan mengira-ngira esok atau nanti aku masih punya waktu untuk menghidupkan diri... (ya mungkin dikala mati... hahaha... adakah penyesalan dikala kau mati??)

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telah lama.....

2007-02-17T12:06:00.000+08:00

telah lama aku tak berasa... tak menuliskan kembali kata-kata, melarikan diri dari keteraturan dunia....

telah lama kau menjadi boneka (katanya), telah lama tidak bersuara, senandungkan ritme kehidupan yang berkolaborasi dengan harapan...

telah lama aku diam... talah lama otak kiriku mati,
tanpa pena dan kertas kini, aku serasa mati (benar teman! mati!).. beku! tiadalagi kata... tiadalagi gairah....

aku merindu gitar ku.,. aku merindu sudutku,.. aku merindu kehidupan 'muda'ku...

aku merindumu...merindunya....

aku merindu aku yang dulu....

late birth!

2006-12-26T19:35:00.000+08:00

back to Jakarta...
and to have a feeling of unsureness about my life and my futureand and also knowing that i'll get the answer in a few days make me feel unsafe... my heart beating so fast, and just feel dont want to have connections with anyone till i get the answer......

anyway, I never had a chance to write about my birthday... its been 24 days since, and yet i still feel like not having a birthday. Still trying to figure out what the meaning of that honour day, when 23 years ago my lovable mom give me a chance to live and to have a wonderful life. And i thankful for that, and i'm celebrating it every year for the reason that i pass another year to live.... but outside that reason, i still dont think that a birthday should've been that matter,.. it just another birthday..... rite!

But in this year, its feel a little bit bitter 4 me, not beacuse im getting older, (rite, everyone get a little bit older every same year as i do.. even a person who gets 30 or 40 in this year doesnt feel worse about their life, because they lived their life!, same as i do!) But its just because i must sent a part of me away from me... i must feel happy for him eventhough i know i will miss him very much....but as he say, he'll be gone just for coming back to me.... and i'll wait, cause i know, we're never will be apart,... 2 times i've been there done that thing, and at the end, there will always him who actually stand by my side.....

So, i left the day of my birth in year 2006 at back of my memory,nothing left of it, just a glinch of birthday song, cake, his present at 01.00 am in front of my house,.... so happy belated birthday for me.... have a nice phase on the 23rd year of your life indhi!

tired... but still survive

2006-12-20T19:59:00.001+08:00

wednesday, 20th dec 2006

hey... it has been days since my last post.... and now im here, far from home trying and struggling to reach my dream ( errr... maybe one step to my dream....) but sides of the tiredness hoping and preparing all of it, i'm still happy that at least i get my opportunity to travelling all by myself... YES!!!! all by myself.. even though there's many friends of me around here, but yeah, they work on day... so i'm walking around, sightseeing and of course SHOPPING (huakakakak...) all by myself......

miss my family though... and off course, miss him....

so... it has been 5 days, and three days to go... hope all this worthed.... amin!

kesi-buk-an...

2006-11-21T01:36:00.001+08:00

sehari-hari kami di bakoel.... -bro,jawir,indra,indhi - tim lapangan banteng-pasarbaru-

huai!

entah kenapa, rasanya capek banget... padahal sebenernya gak ada kesibukan yang berarti....

rutinitas miggu-minggu terakhir hanya sekitar rumah-depok-bakoel-tempat abi.... berhubung 27 ini presentasi ke pemda, jadi emang ngebut dan fokus ke atu itu, (walaupun kenyataannya gak sefokus itu :P)

today ai ke plaza indo, bertemu delldew... :)

senangnya.....

...passing by

2006-11-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

adikritz,indhi,rafael,abi,anti,danny,rafael,Mas aang

they said they are an architect... are they?

Above is a long time ago picture, taken by Davy Linggar @ senayan city, a design exhibiton by indonesian architects.... remembering the process make me smile a little bit, eventhough im not 100% involved, but yet its still a fun thing to be remember... :)

In the picture, there are people who formally and non-formally called themselves as an architect, but the fact is, there only one person whose been legally signed as an architect :P

i really do hope the rest of it will be to in another few years... i hope we all still have the same spirit... the same idealism and yet not only called as an architect, but also act like an architect...

So till the moment arrive, and time pass us by,,.. we will meet again in another exhibition, ....................................................................................with your name in it guys!

......wanna be

2006-10-29T14:12:00.001+08:00

prama,dhika,dhona,heri,ira,prima,anggra,indhi +elda jadi tukang foto :P

kemaren ketemu prama lagi... its been a while, dan dia semakin mirip gorilla... hahaha.... hufff..

i really wish to be somewhere else right now.. but i guess when its just a will and i dont want to take the risk it will always be just a will...

yah, paling tidak ive already been there yesterday... rame lagi, ada heri,ira,dhona,elda,prima,andhika dan tentunya... prama....

lebaran, once more!

2006-10-25T23:07:00.000+08:00

andhara,adhi,andied,indhi,anjani @ oPa's house 24th october 2006

yesterday was another idul fitri day in my life, and yet i notice its been degrading year after year... specially since my grandmother wasnt here anymore. I miss the spirits, cant tell you why but its just empty, its just like another ritual, tradition and after that its just nothing.......

but, damn..i shouldnt felt this way... and i know that its should be fixed... but how... i dont know, maybe time will answer it...

Amir Rachmad's Family , 24th october 2006

anyway, its still felt great to have all the family come together in one place, from the eldest to the youngest.. preparing all together and also celebrating it all together.. and i should thanks that to this occasion, coz without it, my big family would never come as one like yesterday....

so till we meet again....

@ lebaran 2007

ciao...........

bertemu mereka... menyenangkan...

2006-10-09T17:30:00.000+08:00

bukpus ARISO1 @ rumahkyu,.. :P 08oktober 2006

hi...

kemaren gue baru aja ketemu lagi ama temen-temen arsoy asoy... hehehehe.. tentunya di ARISO1... fufufuf... noraks... tapi senang :P apalagi acaranya dirumah eke...jadi hemat ongkos... hahahaha...

lumayan juga yang dateng... saling berbagi cerita... berbagi suka dan sedikit duka.... gila, gak kerasa udah 7 bulanan setelah gue lulus kuliah... and i really do miss those unforgettable times... hiks... masa ngekost, manjet pager, nongkrong di dul mpe pagi buta... sahur bareng, hiks... stress bikin maket... mati lampu di jurusan jam3 pagi trus nongkrong di halte bareng anak2... KANGWEEEEEENnn,,,,,,,
tapi yah begitulah... hidup berjalan terus bukan... dan untungnya manusia memiliki ingatan, jadi kita bisa mengenang semuanya... dan 4 1/2 tahunku di SELASARS gak akan jadi sia-sia...

miss yu all guys...

Friday im in...

2006-10-06T13:48:00.000+08:00

hey.....

lagi di kampus nih... rehat ngasdos :P

just feelin' blue...

kadang lo berharap tidak ada kebohongan dari orang disekitar lo...

cuman kadang.. kejujuran menyakitkan..... :)

mellow me....hehehehehhe.....

i've move on bukan.... :P

hidup hidup...

architecture itself....

2006-10-02T23:31:00.000+08:00

@pelepasan sarjana baru 2006

dengan 'junior-junior' gue yang gak lucu! hehehe..

pertanyaan paling populer bulan ini..... ndhi kerja dimana sekarang???
berawal dari sejak gue sering lagi ke kampus (saya kini mencoba menjadi asdos... sotoy tapi usaha :P), tidak bisa terelakan jadi kembali sering bertatap muka dengan mereka yang masih demen di kampus :P... sebenernya sih kangen banget ama kantek dan sekitarnya, tapi jujur, agak males karena setiap ketemu orang pasti ditanyain :

pertanyaan pertama : ndhi ngapain k kampus???
pertanyaan selanjutnya : kerja dimana sekarang??

dan kalo gue ngejawab jujur : gue kerja ndiri, jadi arsitek freelance
pertanyaan itu gak akan berhenti sampai disitu saja, bakal ada embel2nya... panjang pokoknya... makanya kadang gue memilih jawaban singkat... : nganggur.... :P

bukanya maksud kenapa-napa, tapi emang menjelaskan tentang profesi yang sedang gue jalanin ini sulit... arsitek freelance oke, bisa dibilang seperti itu... tapi untuk mengisi waktu gue bisa dibilang berprofesi sebagai penulis, ... dan mungkin juga pemimpi hahahaha.... iya serius, kalo orang tahu gue nulis di majalah skala+ atau smart living, gue ditanya : Ndhi lo pindah jalur?
padahal... gue hanya ragu.... :P

ragu akan yang namanya profesi, titel and et cetera,... karena sesungguhsungguhnya, saya bahagia begini... tanpa profesi atau multi profesi.. u can call it all u want,.. tapi saya bebas disini... memiliki dan menikmati 'waktu' ku.. jadi apa,... ?!?!?! seperti biasa, gak jelas...

besok adalah penentuan apakah salah satu proyek gue gol atau enggak... i really wish i could get it... SEMANGAT!!!!!!!!

minggulagiminggulagi

2006-10-02T01:25:00.000+08:00

hey... dah lama gak nge post.... dan hari ini gue memutuskan untuk menjadikan blog gue ini open for public,,, 'dont know why but i did it,...' ,..

trus, cerita hari ini... seperti biasa minggu adalah hari gue bersama keluarga... hari utama dari 7 dalam satu minggu... kayaknya sih bisa dibilang jadwal gue yang paling jelas ada di hari minggu :P supir keluarga... hehehehe , canda ma., pisss

berawal ke ambassador, perhentian pertama yang utama,.... GILA satu-satunya daerah yang 24/7 gak terjadi perubahan drastis ya ini, jalan depan ambassador,,, macet gila!! dan tambah gila lagi pas adek gue berkomentar dengan santainya...

andhika : '' ndhi, ABCD nih..''
indhi : ''hah?!''
andhika : '' aduh bo', cape deh...''

DUENG!!!!! mampus... pergaulan, pergaulan... (geleng-geleng)

bis dari ambassador, kita meluncur ke senayan city.. niatnya sih mau buka disana, tapi berhubung keluarga gue kompak banget,,, gue, adek gue yang pertama,adek gue yang terakhir ama nyokap lagi pada ''dateng bulan'' hahaha... alias gak puasa,.. jadinya cuman si cowok atu itu doang yang berbuka... udah gitu rakus banget lagi, buka di frankfurter trus lanjut ke sushi tei bis itu beli krispy kreme dan j-co... SEDENG!!!!! tapi ikutan juga :P

dan sekarang, dirumah, bersiap-siap menjalani esok yang tanpa pasti....

huah... SEMANGAT!!!!!

im tired being in love!

2006-09-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

.... apakah untuk merasakan cinta harus terasa selelah ini.....
karena kini aku tiba di titik dimana hancurnya hati akan ada walaupun aku memilih diantara dua pilihan...
hufff......

yah, balik lagi dengan tulisan-tulisan gak jelas...
menunggu kepastian dari suatu kondisi yang entah kenapa melelahkan seluruh 'ada'nya aku...

tolong... tolonglah, jangan buat aku terombang ambing terlalu lama...
hufffff.....

udah ah...
lelah....
gak jelas....
penat!!!!!

udah lama....

2006-09-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

----- foto anjaniandhara by : moi :P ---------------------

udah lama yah gak nulis...

abis hidup lagi berjalan gak tentu, tapi mudah-mudahan kini perlahan menuju ke sesuatu yang lebih baik.... amin...

sekarang jam 11 malem nih... baru balik dari rumah kakek gue, sebelumnya ke disney lantern, disney2annya orang jakarta :P , yah lumayanlah mencicipi dunia disney setetes, walau yang terasa hanya sinar lampunya saja :)...

ada sedikit sesuatu adegan hidup tadi sore yang membuat gue berfikir....

jadi kejadiannya ada mba2 yang nawarin nyokap gue buat buka kartu kredit, tapi kan nyokap gue dah ada kartu... trus nyokap nawarin gue ke mbanya untuk buka kartu... kesan pertama si mba adalah---- nih anak masih kecil banget mau buka kartu sendiri---- yah emang sih, gayya gue masih ngasal banget, kaos oblong budukan dengan jins robek dan sepatu keds dekil.... tapi plss deh... gue udah 22 dan udah kerja juga,... trus pertanyaan keduanya setelah pertanyaan apakah gue udah kerja atau belum----- mba ada slip gaji??---- jedeng./// tersadarlah saya repotnya menjadi freelancer!!!!! bahkan untuk mengapply kartu kredit aja ribet...!!! trus jadi terbayang2 tidak adanya asuransi, biaya ganti dokter, transport dan lainnya... ooo shit!!!! hehehehe......

ini gak penting sih... cuman emang jadi keinget lagi tentang konsekuensi pilihan hidup gue... tapi untungnya sih baru terpikir sedikit aja di sudut otak gue.. belum jadi virus menggelegar yang meneriakan rasa haus akan kemapanan versi metropolitan... hehehehe... masih waras kok gue, belum segitunya pengen kerja di gedung bertingkat, ber AC, dengan lingkunganyang serupa tapi tak sama, sebau tapi tak pernah asem.... hehehe... masih pengen bebeas dan tidak terikat benda bundar berkekuatan dahsyat bernama jam! dengan jarum di angka sembilan dan lima di 5 hari seminggu.... :)

yah yah.. masih betah berkeliaran, masih betah dianggap pengangguran... masih betah dilihat sebagai anak ingusan... BUT U WILL SEE THEN!!! dibalik ke slengean, kebudukan, ke asal an seorang indhi, ada mimpi yang akan dicapai! yang terus dkejar dengan semangat dan niat yang sama dengan kalian semua... walau mungkin caranya berbeda :P

ciao... dan HIDUP SEPATU BUDUK!! HIDUP KAOS OBLONG!!! HIDUP!! HIDUP!!

h-1 dari keterarturan yang tidak teratur.....

2006-08-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

hei.... gak kerasa tinggal 1 hari lagi liburan panjangnya....
huah... dengan ini saya bisa berkata bahwa.... LIBURAN INI BEGITU MEMUAKAN!!!!!!! i prefer doin something that will make money than sitting here doin nothin!
yap.... weekend ini bener2 sucks! all the things around me just dont fit right! and its killin me....

hari ini mau survey pasar baru-banteng lagi.... just hope today will be a better day..

hari raya indonesia!

2006-08-17T16:17:00.000+08:00

hai...hai...

selamat hari kemerdekaan semu untuk negara yang menganggap dirinya merdeka.....

hari ini, tepatnya kemaren gue mulai ngarang lagi... just feel the emotion burning inside and i think that writing is the best escape (maybe the only one) for me....

abis.... ternyata menyadari bahwa gue sedang dalam kondisi abnormal dalam setiap titik jenis hidup... jadi daripada bunuh diri mending nyipta lagu lagi... :P i've been betrayed! hiks.... jadi daripada membuang tangis untuk hal yang gak penting itu, mending saya menyanyi :)

tadi ke Taman deket rumah... om gue buka stand di bazaar gudang peluru (dalam rangka hari perayaan itu!), dengan sayup2 musik dangdut dari panggung... yah lumayan lah, paling tidak warga kompleks ini berkumpul bersama di ruang yang beradius hanya berapa puluh meter saja... walaupun berkumpul ini pun semu tercipta, mereka hanya lewat tanpa bersapa... MASYARAKTA MACAM APA INI!!?!!?!??!?!,,,,,,, jadi sekarang aku tahu fungsi dari hari raya itu apa... untuk bertatap muka dengan tetangga...walau tanpa suara :)

trus... ntar mau ke ambassador ah... nyari2 hiburan...CUCI MATA katanya...heheheh... gak jelas gini... LONG WEEKEND YANG ANEH...:P

terimakasih untuk barongsai yang tadi pagi berkoar di depan rumah... saya sekarrang NGANTUK!!! anjrooott...ganggu hari libur aja yah.... :) satu lagi tentang hari raya... MENGUSIK KETENANGAN! huahahahahha.....jangan masukin ati yah... itu hanya emosi.... :)

udah ah, gak jelas/.... CIAO!

pulang dari keseharian... dan akan cabut lagi :P

2006-08-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

hey ho....
baru pulang dari pasar tebet nigh :P abis beli cd kosong buat ngeburn file CV+portfolio... SMANGAT 45 nyari kerja tetep.... heheheeheh....

yah gak juga sih... i've been thinking a lot lately... jadi kira-kira begini mungkin rencananya.... gue bakal nyari kerja tetep yang didaerah tebet juga,,, 9 to 5 kan tu... trus malem sekitar jam7 gue nge-freelance... mau 3d doang kek, desain kek.. apapun...!!!!!!. nah buat yang majalah... kan 4 bulanan ama taunan kan tuh,,, jadi gue selip2 in deh diantaranya... gimana???? sounds like a great idea bukan?????? huahahahahahahahah.... huffff....

mudah-mudahan sih semuanya bisa fine-fine aja...

ada atu lagi rencana gue... tapi gue rasa gak akan semudah yang gue rencanakan... tapi what the heck! SEMANGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT!!!!! huahakakakaakk....

jadi hari ini rencananya apa???

bikin portfolio trus ke setiabudi deh... biasa... mengatur nafas dan mengecangkan pinggang... huekekekeke....

bye!

hari ini....

2006-08-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

hari ini gue menyadari sesuatu....
saat ini gue belum memiliki apa-apa...
jauh dari sesuatu yang gue cari, karena gue akhirnya benar-benar memahami bahwa uang bukanlah segalanya....

tapi diluar itu semua, jawabannya selalu sama, bahwa hidup ini bukan hanya tentang gue dan kemauan gue...
YAP gue mau dan rela untuk hidup susah, tidak memiliki barang-barang mewah, makan diwarung depan kompleks, memakai baju yang sama untuk beberapa hari...
Namun, ada yang lain dari tentang itu semua... bahwa keinginan gue tidak bisa dimenangkan dari keinginan-keinginan yang lainnya.... 4 lawan 1 bukan lah perbandingan yang baik bukan... namun itulah kenyataannya....

dan kini gue berjuang, mengemis dan menghancurkan mimpi dan keinginan gue untuk mengejar beberapa gepok kertas bergambar yang bernilai untuk kebahagiaan si empat, dan yang satu hanya bisa diam , menahn teriakan didalam dada.... SADARI memang kenyataan yang terjadi di negara ini.,,, INDONESIA TERCINTA,,, kelompok mayoritas selalu memenangkan 'pertandingan' entah berkualitas atau tidak, tapi kuantitas memang berbicara keras disini.... gue setuju dengan pendapat BUNG PRAM, tentang keberanian berkelompok tanpa keberanian individu telah menghancurkan negara ini!!!! Tapi apalah hubungannya itu semua dengan curhatan gue hari ini.... HAHAHAHAHA.... kembali tertawa ke diri sendiri,,,, karena lebih baik tertawa daripada mati menahan amarah didada....

hah.... dunia ini memang hanya sekali saja kujalani sebagai seorang indhira sagita.... mungkin dikehidupan kelak nanti, aku mendapatkan kebebasan yang absolut.... atau paling tidak,,, aku bisa menjadi yang normal menurut mayoritas dan bergabung dengan mereka.... atau mungkin,.... aku tidak tinggal di indonesia..... atau mungkin lagi, INDONESIA menjadi lebih baik... karena sesungguhnya,,, aku senang tinggal di indonesia... aku hanya tak tahan dengan budaya yang dibuat-buat oleh penghuninya... hufff!